Cosmic Reward (66) - I open up to my friends and Z

Jun 4

Father, today I shared with YL that my rship with Z is non-committal and he only wanted a fling with me. YL said that's crappy and asked why I go in. I told her because I want him and its my lesson. I told Z isn't it a perfect lesson, me who is afraid to enter into rship because of my abandonment pain body, now is in a rship with a partner that state he wants to abandon me from day one.
When I have successful completed my lesson, all other rship will be easy.

I am surprised I shared. Previously I couldn't as I perceive it to be stupid and losing loads to be in such a rship with Z. But now I am not bothered, there is nothing to lose and I am just learning my lesson. I want to conquer my fear and proceed in my self-mastery path.

Because I have opened up. When I saw the toiletries shop have discount, I tot of buying body wash for Z. I recalled his body wash lotion has finished and he didn't have time to buy. This was the second time I tot of it. Few weeks back, I dismissed it when the tot came as I felt buying such gift was personal and it really showed that I cared for him.
Today, I am not bothered. It is a personal gift and I will give the perception I cared. But its true, so what's there to lose even if he knows I care. I was not sure which lotion to buy and I just called him but there was no reply. I knew he was sleeping. I just try to smell the scent on my own and bought him the body wash.

An hour later he called back and told me he was sleeping. I told him I bought body wash for him as there was a discount sale and I tot he hasn't got time to buy yet. He said that's great as he has not buy cos he was too bz. He then proceed to tell me his agenda for today. He also reiterate that we couldn't meet up next week because I couldn't make it.

My brother is back. He invite me to join his family for a session in the park. Normally I wouldn't join and especially so this time as I was out whole day and would need downtime alone. But this time I said yes and we enjoyed ourselves tremendously. The past is gone.

Father, when I break my own door and open up to Z, my rship with my brother deepens. Amen.

Expect a Miracle
Something that is real, coming from within, will give u hints of delightful anticipation.
You will have positive feelings when u think about attaining a legitimate goal, as compared to fearful resistance if its false.
Your body is naturally delightful, alive and in tune with the universe. When ur decisions give u this feeling, u know you have made the right one.

Soul
With Z, my body always delight in him. Even thinking about him, talking about him brings delight and anticipation.

Expect a Miracle
With a desire that is true and intentions that are clear, u r in tune with the universal force and the resistance will disappear. It will be natural for u to succeed in attracting a perfect partner. Higher Grace will unfold into ur life in the guise of good luck, good timing and coincidence that will make the partnership seem magical.

its important to assimilate the expectation of miracles into ur belief structure so that their unfolding will be natural and graceful.