Cosmic Reward (56) - Z is sweet

May 26

Father, today I slept at the relaxation mode. I must be tired. I also noted that when I did 61 points without movement, I tend to lose awareness and doze off.
Then I had a dream, again I forgot where I parked my car. There were an ex colleague, Lily and ex course mate, Yoke Mun and her daughter. There were some commotion and I got frightened and woke up and did my Shakti/Shambavi. Bit disturbing.
I interpret this as feeling lost and don't know where to go.

I called Z yesterday and we talked about nearly 1 hour. He shared his week and also told me of his preparation for next week 'launch". He is excited and told me it was the first time he made such preparation. In the midst of conversation, he also told me that he is loyal to me. It has a sweet feel.
I asked him how he feel about my 'connection to Source. He said he is already used to me, I connect and laugh everywhere. So, he is not surprised that I connect when I had my orgasm.
And he didn't react when I exploded into laughter because he doesn't want to break my connection. So, sweet.

The Science of Mind
There is something called God that makes things out of Himself by becoming the things he makes, according to law and order. As nearly as the intelligence of the human race is able to judge, Spirit creates by contemplation.

Soul
Looks like I am the right track. Inner path is the mode of contemplation.