Cosmic Reward - beginning of recovery (7)

Jun 20 Aft
Father, I am an expert at Self-realisation on the path to Self-mastery.

The Issue
1. Ordinariness.
Whenever, in whatsoever situation, u become one, a peace, a happiness, a bliss surrounds u, arises in u. U filled fulfilled.
U r facing a time now when this easy, natural and utterly ordinary approach to the situations u encounter will bring far better results than any attempt on ur part to be brilliant, clever or otherwise extraordinary.
Take things easily and simply, one step at a time.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
Healing
The figure of this card is naked, vulnerable, open to the loving touch of existence. The aura around his body is full of light and the quality of relaxation, caring and love that surrounds him is dissolving his struggle and suffering.
When we are under the healing influence of the King of Water, we r no longer hiding from ourselves or others. In this attitude of openness and acceptance we can be healed, and help others also to be healthy and whole.

Soul
I know I am now relaxed and accepted the ending. Now is the healing time.

3. External influence
Stress
The essential man comes to know, to feel, "I am not separate from the whole, and there is no need to seek and search for any destiny on my own. Things are happening, the world is moving of their own accord.

There is no need for me to make any struggle, any effort: there is no need for me to fight for anything. I can relax and be.

Soul
This week my 2nd in command is on mc. Then there is also Isha volunteering. And I am thinking of my writing.
Aiyah, no hurry.
Father, its true. I tend to be affected by people.
Whenever I take something, I will deliver. I do good. If I don't do good, I feel my valuation dropped.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Conditioning
Unless u drop ur personality, u will not be able to find ur individuality.
The image we have for ourselves comes not from our own direct experience but from the opinions of others. A personality imposed from the outside replaces the individuality that could have grown within. We become just another sheep in the herd, unable to move freely and unconscious of our own true identity.
Take a look at ur own reflection and make a move to break out of whatever u have been conditioned by others to believe about urself.

5. The Resolution
Integration
The conflict is in man. Unless it is resolved there, it cannot be resolved anywhere else. The politics is within, between two parts of the mind.
This is a time of communication between day and night. Rather than day opposing night, dark suppressing light, they work together to create a unified whole, turning endlessly one into the other.
We r the union of eagle and swan, life and death. The card of integration is the symbol of self creation, new life and mystical union.

Soul
1st tot is on Z. I don't want the rship to end, but I cannot let it continue. Slowly but surely I accepted the ending.
Tot of me wanting to be famous in my writing and yet still hiding.
Just like Z is hiding.