Cosmic Reward - benefits from ending (7)

Jun 19 Aft

Father, just did an article on my break up with Z.

I also did volunteering work for Isha. A day ago, I would have tot of how Z will see, whether he thinks of me or etc. Especially since his parting statement was for both of us to promote and grow Isha and to forget about ourselves. I vehemently told him that is his target and not mine. Infact when he said he cannot be open on us because I am in Isha, I offer to come out.
Now, I no longer bothered. It is over and I can see my mirror. If I cannot open up with my courage, I cannot expect him to do so.

Father, I cannot open up my writing and I really don't know how yet. I now fully accept the ending of our relationship. No misery, no regrets, just acceptance.
What I now need to do is to get myself to open up on my writing.

Father, now reading "My books published, Now What?"
Compared to writing, selling your books successfully is a far greater challenge.
Most authors (96.9%) nowadays are responsible for marketing and promoting their own book.
We hate to say it...but from our knowledge and experience, we feel obligated to inform you that if you do nothing now, your book willl probably become a dismal failure, soon to sink out of sight!!

Soul
Suddenly I knew if I continue to hide, my dream of a famous Transformational writer will fade away. Just like I fade away from Z. I could have been his dream relationship.
The outcome between Z and me is the same outcome between me and my writings if I continue to hide.

My books published, Now What?
In order for good things to happen, however, you need to directly involve yourself to make it happen!!!

Soul
Again, need to open up and be involved directly.
Suddenly tot what a lesson. I never like to do/act. I normally give others direction. I encountered it first time when I was a child doing housework, I make sure I earned money so I need not do.
Second time in current company, I change the structure and now I need not do and can delegate.
Third, when I am doing my website. At first delegate to V but he is not free and besides its my baby. Finally, after breakup with Z, I started to find own pix and upload articles.
Finally, now its my book and I myself have to do it, open up and promote it.
Father, u keep the best for last. Now I finally have to open up and move my butt. Even before doing, I need to find courage to open up.

My books published, Now What?"
It may come as a gut-wrenching shock to learn that you're the one responsible for promoting and marketing your book, and that the success or failure of your book will be determined by the effectiveness of your own efforts.

Soul
What a perfect timing! My break up with Z, and me seeing the mirror of hiding and finally reading this book. I only download it last Friday. Insight on mirror - hiding only came in Saturday night.
Father, You really worked fast.

My books published, Now What?"

(Jun 27 - Father, I am feeling stuck. I should be letting go of tots of Z and focus on my writing. But since I cannot open up to my writing and I don't know how, I used Z instead to fill my mind. And it is not an intelligent choice...Aiyoh.)