I am not as free and unafraid as I tot I am

Jun 1

M tired today. Actually not as tired as I should be. Was at the hospital with dad till 2 plus am. Didn't do my practice today.
No reply from Z but m fine. I remind myself we r meeting next week and he really likes me and I am in his mind even if he doesn't call me often. I want to have faith that our rship will work, the same as I know my job will work.

Mind is saying so much money outflow this month, with the maid, lassik surgery and etc. I know I have the money and it wouldn't make a dent in my lifestyle. Besides lassik surgery is monthly payment, which by then my loan for apt would have been fully settled.

I look good today. All my worries about looking bad is gone. But we are not meeting up. I remember the Patience card.

The Science of Mind
Those of us who suffer from blood troubles and skin diseases have not proven ourselves the promise: "Ye shall know the truth".
Many skin diseases and blood disorders can be traced to a break in the rhythmic harmony of life. Blood is manifesting as pure substance.
If one has been irritated mentally, and has not been able to adjust himself to the undesirable cause of the irritation, it is but natural that it should manifest objectively sooner or later.
Criticism and inability to live with people - to adjust oneself to the many - bring about many disorder. A deep-seated resentment against persons or conditions will surely manifest itself in some disagreeable position.

Healing mantra
"There is no irritation, frustration or resentment in my life. Any sense of inner agitation is now wiped away and in its place there comes a warm sense of my oneness in essence and experience with all the good there is.
The center of my being is Understanding and Intelligence.

My existence is a harmonious progression, that of a son of God entering fully into conscious sonship.
My career through life is a joyous, happy expression, a daily expansion into realms of life and living.
My life in God is ageless, deathless and abiding.
I now surrender every personal doubt, fear or hard feeling that would retard the perfect flow of life through me.
There is no obstructions, no barrier in my mind, veins or affairs.
I am harmonious, peaceful, free and unafraid.

Soul
I realised that I am not as free and unafraid as I tot.