My Saturn and Cosmic Lesson

Jun 1 Aft

Queen of Diamond
Seven of Club in Saturn
Personal challenge is the negative aspect of mind, which are worry, doubt and pessimism. They have much inspiration and insight, but when they don't follow it, it bring them despair and sometimes depression.

Seven of Spade in Cosmic Lesson
Their main challenge is to learn to trust and keep their faith in spite of circumstances. Their main challenges will come in the areas of work and health.

Soul
I know my challenge is in Z, but the worst is over and now I am fine. He is still unreachable at times. With him I have to overcome both negative mind and to have faith. Double lesson. No wonder he is my Saturn and Pluto. True, I am his Venus and Mercury but because of his lesson to me, he cannot get me easily. So, I too am a challenge to him.

Reading about the skin. It has been nearly a month since I have skin irritation. And the Science of Mind states that skin and blood is in the same league. The Science of Mind
Criticism and inability to live with people - to adjust oneself to the many - bring about many disorder. A deep-seated resentment against persons or conditions will surely manifest itself in some disagreeable position.

(Jun 16 - Finally I realised it is because I am sad with the current mode of relationship with Z. I have ignore my sadness. It finally erupted)

Soul
I am mildly irritated at work. Simple things get to me. The only thing that is going for me is the lunches and the one day off work.
And now there is a fest of activities but somehow I am not excited. Father, I seem to have lost interest.
And here I don't even have an alternative career. My writing has not take off and I have not been writing for the past 1 month. Its year end and looks like I didn't fulfill my Pluto challenge for the year.
I am irritated with myself. Its like me taking the pills but it is not required. Things are not happening. A tot came to me, Be patient.

Part of me said nothing is happening. I am not growing. A tot came, u have grown in terms of relationship. I have come so far. Perhaps I am just being impatient.

My mantra
I now surrender every personal doubt, fear or hard feeling that would retard the perfect flow of life through me.
There is no obstructions, no barrier in my mind, veins or affairs.
I am harmonious, peaceful, free and unafraid.

Treatment for peace of mind
There is no uncertainty about my future and no fear as a result of the past. I live in the eternal Now which is filled with good alone. Goodness and beauty follow me. Peace and joy accompany me. Happiness and wholeness fill my entire being with the realisation of love and perfection.

Soul
Father, after all my search, I now only have one word, Faith. Just have faith in myself and in You, everything will flow. I have done all that I can.
So, its good I cannot meet up Z this week. Then I can start on my writing.