Cosmic Reward - beginning of recovery (3)

Jun 14 Aft

Father, instead of saying he doesn't like me enough. Alternative tot is he like himself more and defending his parameter. Just the same as me.
Father, its not easy. I still think he would come back. Am I dreaming?

Just did shoonya and same tot occur to me. He is just defending his turf like me. Don't take it personally.

Suddenly tot of Fung Shui Master said about me being a worrier and taking other people problem as my own. Key msg; taking things personally.

He has stated his parameters since day 1 which I agreed. And now I back off as it triggers my parameters. So, its the same. Father, for the first time in my life I don't take a break up personally.

Another thing is that I didn't fix it. I just let it be. The old me would called him to demand an answer. The new just let him be. He has the right to protect his turf, just like I am protecting mine.

Mmm, looks like I have to pay for car damage. Hopefully doesn't exceed 1k. To me, a non-issue.

Evening
Finally got the price - RM550. Really Six of Diamond.

Father, tot of 7 of Spade in Neptune. My dad is in hospital, I broke up with Z and now accident. So many not good things happen and I am trying to see the good of it.

The Seven of Spades in Neptune period
The period could bring about either difficulties at work, illness related to travel, drugs or something secret.
Worry, unrealistic expectations and other negative habits will likely be the cause of any difficulties during this period.
However, the spiritual nature of this combination suggest that u could attain a high state of awareness and freedom of mind by being honest with urself and looking within for the answers to the problems u now face.
If u r willis to practice positivity in spite of circumstances. This is a card of Faith.

Soul
Something secret is my rship with Z. I broke it off cos I cannot continue without commitment. My fear is triggered easily.
Since it is difficult to let go of him as my mind is attached...I am more adamant to end the suffering by disconnecting with my mind