Cosmic Reward - the end of cosmic r'ship

Jun 15 Eve
Father, he is blur to feeling and I am blur to physical.

Father, he called and said all sorts of things. But it has ended. Of cos, mind say this and that but I don't regret having this last conversation. At last I can close this relationship without any regret.

The saddest part is that he tries to tell me he cannot have open rship with me because of the association. I told him that I accepted the challenge and I can quit the association. He said he would be sad if I quit it. I told him the association didn't matter much to me. I can go to India annually to have my fix. He said I am a good teacher and have potential. I told him that its not my goal. I helped temporarily, that's all.
He is a real survivor but I am a fixer. I need to have an ending.

Father, his Nine of Heart card is today and he closed the ending of our relationship. My Nine of Heart card initiated the ending.

I am sad that he try to comfort me and said we to grow the association. I told him that the association is not my goal. It is his goal. And this time I hang up on him. No more.

Father, the mind is telling me I am unlovable. But I don't want to go there. At least this time I put up a fight till the very end. There is a proper closure.

Friendliness
First meditate, be blissful, then much love will happen of its own accord. Then being with others is beautiful and being alone is also beautiful.
U relate; as long as things are moving beautifully, u share.
And if u see that the moment has come to depart because ur paths separate at the crossroad, u say goodbye with great gratitude for all that the other has been to u, for all the joys and all the pleasures and all the beautiful moments u have shared with the other.
With no misery, with no pain, you simply separate.

Soul
Yea, I have cried my tears the other day. Today is just the final
closure.
Just remember he is protecting his parameter, just like me.
We r both grounded to our plans.
He did say he is strong and can defend himself for having feelings for me because he is badly damaged and cannot afford to give his heart to me. And he admitted that he was thinking about me the past few days too but he didn't want to call me.
So, I am lovable that he was distracted from his target.