Amazing Surya Kriya

Mar 9
Father, amazing Surya Kriya. I actually can see the position of my hands and legs with eyes closed. So eerie, I truly can see with eyes closed. After a full cycle, I was blown off, crying and laughing at the same time.

I had a tot this morning. Instead of seeing as Suffering for loving someone who don't love me. I can turn it around. God has never given us a challenge that we can't handle. So, I must have loads of love to do that. I must be Love. Z has not given me love and even ignored me for the past few months and yet my love is still intact.
There is no longer any feel of suffering. But there is still wish that things are different. Since wishing things are different is futile. Just see how to go along with it.

Just now my ex boss called me and I told her of my change in name. I now called myself Joy Ong.

Just checked my rship card before the meet.

1. Myself
Celebration.
Life is a moment to celebrate, to enjoy. Make it fun, a celebration, and then u will enter the temple.
Don't be too clever.  A little foolishness and a little wisdom is good, and the right combination makes u a Buddha.

2. Him
Outsider
So u r feeling like an Outsider. Now u have to be alert not to fill yourself with pain and misery. Whenever we feel left out or excluded, it brings up this feeling of being a small helpless child. It is so deeply rooted that it plays over and over again.

Soul
I m surprised. He normally get politic card. I didn't knew he too faced his own issue. I tot he is inpregnantable. He doesn't need love. And I saw his dream card is Eight of Heart.  But I only knew when I saw his Lunar in Scorpio which cannot accept love and his Moon in Scorpio which controls his feelings and rship. He is a control freak when it comes to relationships, especially romantic ones.

3. Composite
Aloneness.
Aloneness is the presence of oneself. Aloneness is very positive. It is a presence, overflowing presence that u can fill the universe with ur presence and there is no need for anybody.
When there is no significant others in our lives, we can either be lonely or enjoy the freedom that solitude brings. Be a Light unto yourself!

Soul
Looks like we both got to practice being alone.

4. The Insight
Understanding
U r out of jail, out of the cage; u can open ur wings and the whole sky is yours.
Open ur wings and fly across the sun like an eagle. U r being summoned by the grace and freedom and encouragement of the others.
It's fine and natural to be shaky at first. Move with the sweetness and gentleness of this time. Spread ur wings and be free.

Soul
Yea. I have found the joy in me and now ready to express it. I am Joy itself. Amen.

Father, I m finally at peace. Even knowing Z and I won't be together, doesn't erode my joy. My Joy arise independent of him.

Six of Spades
A settling of all affairs and at the same time bring some much needed peace into ur life.

Soul
Yes. Amen