Fifth house in Mars, South Node and Lunar

Mar 4
Wake up just before alarm rang at 4.30 am. Did my Suria Namaskara. I was doing it more consciously. On my clasping hand, now do it per J's advice. When I pressed, a pressure being released to the body. So did the 12 cycles with more awareness than before. Didn't use subtle body.

Today did shavasana in south direction. For the past four and half year, my head was facing north. I sense bit of difference. Father, love u.

Had tots of Z. Lets be realistic, he is coming only for the music, not for u. He has not call you nor reply to ur msg. So, give up up and just continue to love him. Just checked his whatsapp. He was  online since 1 am. Aiyah, let him be. Just love him.

My website be 6k. Just focus on my creation. Don't always focus on expense reduction. That is not creation of prosperity. That is a fear of lack.

Spiritual Astrology
Fifth house: your children, creativity and personal love.

My fifth house is in:
Mars in Libra
South Node is Scorpio
Lunar in Scorpio.

Mars in Libra
Conscious expression
Actively, responsibly, and directly initiating social interaction on the basis of personal integrity.
When u asked others what it is they want from the relationship and honestly share what u want, u r then able to create harmony based on truth. Thus u gain energy by experiencing yourself as the source of harmony or disharmony in ur interactions.

Soul
It's unbelievable. At work, I am able to do so. But personal interactions, not so. No wonder I m meeting and teaching people about assertiveness.
Now I have assert with C, P and now M. I have risked my fear of disapproval and give my piece of mind. I lead when I have to.
With Z, I didn't assert in the beginning. Later, it comes out on outburst and walk out.

Spiritual Astrology
U will regain strength and energise yourself by becoming involved in a creative project that opens ur heart. Having fun energises u.
Ur ability for assertion is connected with ur ability for artistic, dramatic and creative expression.

Soul
Not sure.
Writing do opens my heart.

As I was driving, I suddenly realised that it is possible everyone I teach is for me to learn. I used to say God gives me so much responsibility. Why must I teach others? I myself, learned on my own. No one guides me except for the Masters. Sadhguru was the cake. Then suddenly I cried, the learnings are from people I teach. God did love me. I have learned the hard way. From now onwards, see my teachings as learnings I required.

Amen