My new name - Joy Ong

Mar 7 eve
I opened up and asked my boss if we can find someone to create a logo for Joy Ong. She replied can do.

Father, my name cards has run out and ready for another print. I went to a client meet and got a name card, just Western first name with Chinese surname. I tot it sounded cool. Suddenly I tot that I want to use my new name. The name that I have secretly used for the past 2 years. It's the name of my website. Coincidentally my meditation teacher also give the same name, Joy Ong about a few months ago. And another meditator picked it up and used it too. I tot of openly use Joy Ong in my name card. This is the first step, use my name openly, then it will lead to my website.

I recalled that I was asked to have Christian name when I first started my internship. I adamantly said no as I can't use any name that is not me. O have always been proud of being able to keep my name, not bowing to peers and superior's pressure to change name. And here I changed more than 2 years ago in hiding. But alas, now changing openly.

Father, truly a new beginning. As I was driving back, I was filled with inner sweetness and joy and it spilt out into laughter. I have come a long way, I have truly lived and I felt a sense of reborn. And I understood the Osho's What is needed for resolution? Innocence card that I draw this week.

Innocence
The old man radiates a childlike delight in the world. There is a sense of grace surrounding him, as if he is at home with himself and what life has brought him. The pink flowers cascading around him represent a time of letting go, relaxation and sweetness. They are a response to his presence, a reflection of his own qualities.
The innocence that comes from a deep experience of life is childlike, but not childish. The innocence of a life lived fully has a quality of wisdom and acceptance of the ever changing wonder of life.

Soul
That exactly said how I feel now. I went thru the test of The Outsider card for the past few days and alas a door opened. And this time, bring me out from hiding. I m coming out with my new name, Joy Ong. Amen.

Once again, my Cosmic Lesson came thru. Suddenly tot of my this period Ruling Card's Saturn in Seven of Diamonds with Jack of Diamonds.

Seven of Diamonds
Whether it is about money, plans to make money or love, situation will present themselves that test our faith in the abundance of the universe. By realising and then releasing our fears, we can transform our attachment into total fearlessness and personal freedom.

Seven of Diamonds in Saturn - lack of funds.

Soul
I read about money issue. About 2 weeks ago I found out my additional tax instalment of 3.5k was not paid for 5 instalment and now I have to start paying.
So, for the first time I am financially tight especially since I was also making payments of 4.5k for the company. So, I told myself, don't be afraid as I do have cash. Just need to withdraw my fixed deposit. I also needed to make payment of 6k for the website. I went to the bank but it was the wrong branch and hence cannot lift the fixed deposit. I went back to office and promptly ask them to pay immediately to me.

Mmm this reminds me of my Displacement ruling card of Ace of Diamonds
This year could be one in which u experience some amount of financial limitation, whether real or imagined. A desire for more on the material plane could motivate u into new enterprises or directions, or it could just prove a nagging feeling of not having enough. All in all, u need to put in a little extra effort to guarantee that everything works right in your life.

Ruling Card's Ace of Diamonds in my Environment card
This will be a year where new beginnings, both in ur work and in other financial enterprises, will bring many blessings and good fortune to u. This will be an ideal influence for starting a new business or even a new personal relationship.
Because this is a year of beginnings as far as your values are concerned, u may find that u r starting over in many important areas of your life, areas that will ultimately bring u more joy and contentment.
Rest assured that any opportunities for new money making enterprises, new jobs, or financial deals will be good for you and bring you greater success.

Soul
When I read this before the start of my 2012/2013 year, I tot only of website. Little did I knew the ending with Z is the trigger that led me to open up, to come out from hiding, that want to share.

Father, suffering is truly a blessing in disguise. I was disturbed on my Child's wound and felt lost. But now I found my way and even elevated my growth. Again, thanks to Z for being the trigger point. He is truly my Cosmic Lesson relationship. Amen.