Mind going into silence

Mar 28
Today woke up at 4.30 am without the alarm. I know it's time but why no alarm. Then I tot maybe I accidentally switched it off yesterday. True enough, it was off. Get up 4.40 am to shower. At first mind says do 1 cycle surya kriya but I ignored it, ok to be late.
Did 3 cycles of Surya Kriya.

Driving to work. Very little chatters in the mind. I m still savouring it. Because the mind is quiet, I was able to observe my surrounding. I feel light. I feel contented. Just being. Then I saw the trees. They too are just being. Come rain or shine, they r just being. Father, it feels nice. Just being.
Not sure also if this could be due to 2 days of veg. But maybe not. I think it's because of overcoming the duality of facing Z. Both loving him and releasing him.
I can't stop loving him and yet I can't hold on to him. Both are fine with me.

This week Osho Internal influence card
Inner voice
The Inner Voice speaks not in words but in the wordless language of the heart. It is like an oracle that only speaks the truth. If it had a face, it be alert and watchful, and able to accept both the dark and the light, symbolised by 2 hands holding the crystal. The crystal itself represents the clarity that comes from transcending all dualities.
Then u live as truth - alive, radiant, contented, blissful, a song unto yourself. Your whole life becomes a prayer without any words or better to say, a prayerfulness, a grace, a beauty which does not belong to our mundane world, a ray of light coming from the beyond into the darkness of our world.

Soul
That's exactly how I feel. I have got this card before. But I have never experienced the grace. Never tot it can happen. It is now truly happening. I m savouring the silence. Savouring the lightness. This is true grace. Just being. As I m typing this tears brimming. Just feel so grateful for the grace. Thanks to Father who sent Sadhguru and Osho. Thanks to C who intro me to 7thunder and Jan Spiller. And most of all thanks to Z for being the Tool for me to experience this grace. Amen. Suddenly remember, thanks to me for the courage and perseverance to undertake the journey.

I m just looking at my surrounding. Feeling the trees, seeing the people in cafe. Just being. Yea, being in the Now!  Being present now!  I can't stop smiling and the waiters in cafe looking at me curiously..smiling at me too!

A song is humming in my mind now. Then silence. Father, it is singing again. As I was driving to office, I started to giggle and laugh non stop.

Four of Diamonds
A solid sense of values. When we knows exactly what it is we want, we tend to attract those things to us more quickly.
Satisfaction and prosperity are indicated and u may have a good foundation upon which u can begin building a financial future.

Osho
Maturity
 The distinction between the grasses and the blossoms is the same as between u not knowing u r Buddha, and the moment u know u r Buddha Buddha is completely blossomed, fully open. This is a spiritual spring.

This figure stands alone, silent and yet alert. The inner being is filled with flowers - that carry the quality of springtime and regenerate wherever he goes. This inner flowering and the wholeness that he feels affords  the possibility of unlimited movement. Within and without it makes no difference as his joy and maturity cannot be diminished by externals. He has come to a time of centeredness and expansiveness - the white glow around the figure is his protection and his light. All of life's experiences have brought  him to this time of perfection. When u draw this card, know well this moment carries a gift - for hard work well done. Your base is solid now and success and good fortune are yours for they are outcome of what has already been experienced within.

Soul
Amen. Both 7thunder and Osho had the same msg.