Opening the cage...

Mar 14
Father, woke up about 6.21 am but weather was cool and I decide to sleep. Alarm rang at 7 am but I still want to rest. So, wake up 7.30 am and took my shower.
Did Surya Kriya for 3 cycles,focusing on my breathe.  Had some mix up between Suria Namaskara and Surya Kriya but breathing was much easier. Also on the lying down 8 points, I learned to use my hand to support so I can breathe. On the mountain pose. I learned to push my heel back so support doesn't rest on my hands alone as my right elbow is swollen. Breathing is now much deeper.
Breathing meditation was fine as I can see violet flame.
While I was doing Shakti, I can see that I wasn't feeling bad on Z's avoidance. I was only feeling bad for 'weakening.
Just finished writing my story on today event. What a breakthrough! Z may have determination but he has no courage.

I messages him that I finally know why he is avoiding me. He is not getting married but he just don't to be with me. He prefers that I disappear from his life, period. He has determination but no courage to tell me.

As expected, he didn't reply my message. Holding on to his power. I finally break thru the cage that I have created myself. I still love him but I love me too. As long as I love me, I be fine.

I am glad I went thru my card of What to do?
Thunderbolt
This inner earthquake is both necessary and tremendously important - if u allow it, u will emerge from the wreckage stronger and more available for new experiences. After the fire, the earth is replenished; after the storm the air is clear. Say yes to the process by meeting it halfway.

Soul
Well, I have thrown in the towel with Z.

Resolution
Sharing
When u draw this card, it suggests that u too are in a situation where you have an opportunity to share your love, your joy and your laughter. And in sharing you find that u feel more full.
Everything around you seems to be "coming together" now. Enjoy it, ground yourself in it and let the abundance in you and around you overflow.

Soul
I have also finally out Joy in my company name card.
Just had a good discussion with my web designer. We got our web theme, our layout and now need to find the object. Things are coming along.