Sadhguru - If you want to take off, you must be willing to fall

Mar 14 eve
Father, just finished Shoonya and Samyama. A good one. Such contentment and joy.

Sadhguru - Leela
Those who come first in the world beyond, will come last on this world.
If u want to take off, you must be willing to fall. U must fall of what u have built. Ur personality must be purged.
When u r in personality, u tend to avoid uncomfortable circumstances. U will naturally avoid situation that makes u feel insecure and lose confidence. U will naturally avoid stupendous circumstances or great people.
If u r too concerned about protecting yourself, u cannot fall. That's why u can't take off.

Soul
Yea. My mind is asking me to delete Z contact number in order to avoid contacting him. To avoid another rejection. To avoid fall of pride. I ignored it as this contradict my path to build an altar of love for him. I must remember my long term strategy. I m taking a fall not for him but for my growth.
My control freak came back cos I m feeling afraid.
Now I understand about yday card of "Control" in the Osho rship card.

Control
The image of the King of Clouds reminds us to take a deep breath, loosen our neckties and take it easy. If mistakes happen, it's okay. If things get a little out of hand, its probably just what the doctor ordered. There is much more to life than being "on top of things"

Sadhguru
As long as u hold ur own intention, there is the part of u that creates the resistance against the Creator.
If u r identified with ur limited personality. That's why all the insecurities and fears in ur life. Only if u r no more identified with ur limited personality, who u r inside can be 100% your call. U can take charge 100%.
Who is with u in every moment of your life?

Soul
Not sure where I m heading. But I m not going for suppression via control. Finally less fear of suffering.

Lifetime challenges
Destiny
Seven of Heart - challenges in attachment and unconditional love
Affirmation
I am learning how to experience unconditional love and in the process, set myself free.

Ruling
Seven of Clubs - negativity, exposure to spiritual knowledge
Affirmation
I am enlightening mind and transforming my negative tots to positive and higher level of thinking.