Food is my ego..without good food...I lose myself

Mar 27 eve 1
Osho
In the past it could never have been conceived that mental disease would become so common. When u educate people, give them capacity to think, culture, civilisation give them so much knowledge, then the mind develops more and the knots become more complex. As the mind grows, it's capacity to project increases.
These capacities can increase to such an extent that u become dissatisfied with ur mind and you begin to look for other help for it.

The lust for life holds that anything is better than death. One is prepared to live under any circumstances. But if a person has too great a drive to survive, then the inner journey becomes impossible. He will be attached to the body, to the mind, to his life-current and the attachment will be so strong that he won't be able to let go. He will hold on to everything so tightly that nothing can slip out of his grasp - for fear that he may become lost.

During meditation, a moment comes when one experience death, to die within. But people with such strong drive is fearful.

Soul
Now I know why I resisted especially on the food. To me, to be without good food is the loss of me. I had to hold on at all costs. I had lust for good food.
That's why my greatest fear of meeting Sadhguru is that he will ask me to be vegetarian. I know it's funny to others but I m totally identified to good food. That's why I cried loads when I had to drink kanji during Samyama course. I cried cos to drink it felt abhorring to me, to drink it means losing myself.
And when I finally met him face to face...no such 'request' and instead he just laugh at me..
Alas, I m now finally loosen my identity to food.