Opening up communication with Z

Mar 11

Father, I did what I had to do. Yday I snubbed him. Avoided talking to him. And when I saw him across, my first tot was he want to avoid me. But later I could see him. Anyway now tot if he wants to avoid seeing me, he should have sit my line.

Anyway, I wanted to end this cold stand off. I tried to call him but no reply. Called him twice and I send a msg. Father, how he wants to be with me is his issue. But at least I decide how I want to be. I love and such cold call hurts me and not him.

4. The Insight
Understanding
U r out of jail, out of the cage; u can open ur wings and the whole sky is yours.
Open ur wings and fly across the sun like an eagle. U r being summoned by the grace and freedom and encouragement of the others.
It's fine and natural to be shaky at first. Move with the sweetness and gentleness of this time. Spread ur wings and be free.

Soul
I m no longer afraid of rejection. All the rejection tots are in my mind. Prevent me from playing. I want to transform the conditioning.
I am a full grown joyful woman. Amen.

For the first time, he replied. Amen. At least we maintain open communication.

Father, frankly not sure if he call back tonight. But at the moment no pressure on my side.