Stillness in the swimming pool

Mar 17 eve
Father, as expected no response from him. It no longer matters. What matters is I m no longer affected by his non response.

Suddenly a tot of my natal chart came in; Spiritual Astrology -  Venus in Leo to show love even if the other party is aloof. Lunar in Leo - To give love unconditionally so I can express my creation and love myself. Everything is linked.

I went for a swim in the evening. I just did free style as it was late. I swam effortlessly. And whenever I rest, I burst out into laughter and then total silence and stillness. My body was totally still. This long period of stillness has never happen to me before. Amazing.

Father, yea. My life is pretty intense. And so is my growth. Looks like I was on a spiritual path without even knowing I am on one.

Just now I was sharing with WY that Eight of Diamonds people are fixed in their values. Their likes and dislikes are prominent. She agrees.

Osho
It is the expectation of happiness and the fear of misery that makes one an extrovert. And it is the no-expectation of happiness and a fearlessness of misery that turns one within. This is the difference between indulgence and purification through austerities.

If u ask for happiness, u will have to fight for it, so as to hold on to it and to avoid misery. A fierce struggle is inevitable. Hence the consciousness will always have to be engaged outside in all the external things.