South Node in Scorpio - the answer is to not to hang on to Z

Mar 25 aft 1

Father, Z think he is special. And here others tot I m special but I don't feel it. I know many people are envious of my spiritual receptivity, my 3 days week and my financial strength.

As I was updating my blog, I read the part of me seeking validation from others. I first enter into my inner journey, because of control. I knew it was my subconscious leading my life and I wanted to live consciously. The other thing is I don't want to be so affected by others. I don't want to be so sensitive.

Now I realised my sensory is not the main issue. The real issue is I places my worth upon others validation. At first it was on my career, whenever I felt a plateau, I changed job cos I felt my worth has dropped since there is no crisis to resolve. I have left the mode. Work no longer validates me and hence I am able to decide on what I truly want.
I knew I sought validation from friends and now no longer as affected as before. I only volunteer when I want to.

Now, my partner. That's the last one. Z was the first real partner I have. Now that I read his North node in Aquarius, I can say he is not into me. It is humbling but I can see it now.  In his heart, he has doesn't love me, not even remotely. It is sad. And here I sought validation from him when it is not even on mutual basis. A losing battle.

Suddenly tot of reading my South node in Scorpio. My unconscious expression when I m fearful. Normally I am able to let go of things, hence my second karma card of Nine of Diamonds.
Below is the theme song that has the same "completion" msg

What's the point in hanging on?
Your dream is true, but not on the form
What brings you joy in life today
May come true a different way

Reach your arms up to the sky
Greet the new that's in your life today
Life sent it just to u
Cause you are ready for something new
But you got to let go of what's already gone.
You've got to let go, it's time to move on.

Soul
That's the msg for me. I have just deleted the what'sapp msg on Z. That's the first step. Reading his north node confirms that he was never into me. He has so much passion and will power and he use it, but never with me. At the moment it is used to push me away. Let me go with the tide.

True I have found my soul mate attributes in Z but he has not aspired to his North Node in Aquarius at all. We were sent to each other but he dropped out from his spiritual practices and so cannot meet his Five of Clubs challenge and hence he can't have me, Queen of Diamonds. It is his loss, not mine

And i have nearly achieved all my North Node in Taurus. So, I m ready to meet the transformed North Node Aquarius person. Amen.

Osho card in Relationship - Completion
Even in the ever-changing flow of life there are moments in which we come to a point of
completion. In these moments we are able to perceive the whole picture, the composite of all the small pieces that have occupied our attention for so long.
In the finishing, we can either be in despair because we don't want the situation to come to an end, or we can be grateful and accepting of the fact that life is full of endings and new beginnings. 

Whatever has been absorbing your time and energy is now coming to an end.
In completing it, you will be clearing the space for something new to begin. Use this interval to celebrate both - the end of the old and the coming of the new.