Our lovabilty is how much we love ourselves

Mar 18 aft

Did my practices. Quite good with little tots.

As I woke up, a tot came to my mind. I will have to let go of Z by end of this month. I still love him but it doesn't do me good to keep him in my life when he wanted me out.

Then a tot occurred to me. It is not that Z is no longer loveable but it's because I can no longer take in the fear.

So, on the same premise. Z letting me off may not be because of my lovability but because he has his own values to follow and I don't fit in.

I remember about a year ago I wrote an insight about my love for Z fluctuates in accordance to my own fear. So, on the same premise, it should also be...whether others love us or not...is not the measure of our own lovability...we may be looking at the wrong direction.

The question of our lovability is how much we love ourselves...