Nothing more I can do...whatever will be will be

Mar 19
Good time with friends and colleagues. Nice time in Vietnam. A good place to relax and be. Air is nice and fresh.

This morning, I knew I was sad over Z. After my practices, I knew that irrespective of whatever the outcome, I had no regrets on my rship with Z. And I also had no regrets over the ending.

I checked my Osho cards.
1. Issue
Stress
Things are happening, the world is moving - call it God .., he is doing things. They are happening of their own accord. There is no need for me to struggle, any effort; there is no need for me to fight for anything. I can relax and be. The essential man is not a doer. The accidental man is a doer. The accidental man is, of course, then in anxiety, tension, stress, anguish.

Soul
Exactly. I was dreading the end with Z as month end is closing.
After I read this, immediately I calmed down. I let things be.

2. Internal influence
Beyond illusion
Reality allows you to doubt, and the dream does not allow you to doubt.
The space between the two eyes has opened, revealing the lotus of spiritual unfoldment and the rising sun of awareness.
Don't look outside for what is real, but to look within. When we focus on external, we too often get caught up in judgements. These judgements kept us trapped in our illusion.

3. External influence
Lovers
When your love is not that of a beggar but an emperor, when your love is not asking for something in return but is ready only to give - to give for the sheer joy of giving - then add meditation to it, and the pure fragrance is released. And that is compassion.
We begin to understand that our partner often functions as a mirror, reflecting unseen aspects of our deeper self and supporting us to become whole. This love is then based on freedom, not expectation or nerd. It's wings takes us higher and higher towards the universal love that experiences all as one.

Soul
Mmm, I have seen myself. May be that's why ending is now imminent. We no longer need to be. I love him and I found myself. Whatever will be, will be.

4. What to do?
Silence
Time changes, the world goes on changing, but the experience of silence, the joy of it remains the same. That is the only thing u can rely upon. It is the only thing you can call your being.

Soul
Just continue to do my practices. I enjoy the silence. I feel joyful and then everything becomes acceptable. Whatever will be, will be.

5. Resolution
Sharing
The queen of fire is so rich, so much a queen that she can afford to give. It doesn't occur for her to take inventories. U r in a situation to share your love, your joy and your laughter. And in sharing, u find that you be more full. U find you can enjoy sensuality without possessiveness or attachment, can give birth to a project or a child with an equal sense of creativity fulfilled. Everything around u seems to be coming together now. Enjoy it, ground yourself on it and let the abundance in u and around u overflow.


I knew then I just need to relax and let the world be. Whatever need to happen will happen. With that, I am able to see M's email in a better note.

Father, I observed that I can be easily affected. Just now, when my regional boss said that I should not consider F as my legal counsel, I was bit puzzled on the remarks as I was informed that Top 3 client has to go thru Regional. I just let it be. After the end of the meet, F announced that she be taking a 3 months break. Normally this type of scenario is for people who wanted to quit but was given the option  to reconsider. Then he again mentioned it about me using F as a legal counsel. I found my disturbance flash full force and tot maybe I was wrongly accused of making F feel stressed. Anyway, I didn't let the tots flow. Instead of feeling wrongly accused, I should be happy for making F to think about het life. Amen.