Go with the flow...even if it hurts..still go

Jan 6
Body woke up around 3.30 am before alarm. Woke up finally upon alarm at 3.50 am. Body was fine. I slept around 11 pm yesterday.

Sang guru pooja. Did 5 cycle of surya kriya. Lovely energy. I went in deep during Shavasana. Breathing was okay. Shakti was good. Tots of the impending break up with Y was coming in. I just ignored them. I can see them but I didn't want them to disturb my practices. Towards the end I was laughing loads. Shambavi was good. Towards the end, a loud Ah burst out from my guts. Then sitting in contented silence.

Mind keep on running but I not listening.  Tot today I keep silent with Y as he is very busy at work. Another tot said to keep to the flow.
Tot I be meeting Z soon and wonder whether he will ignore me. It no longer matter after Y.  Z and I were never meant to be.
With Y, I m keeping my values intact.

As I was reading an article by Sadhguru on practices. I just sent to Y. Go with the flow this week.

Rebellesociety
Advice for a broken heart
Do not chastise yourself for believing and dreaming and trying. Open yourself always to love. Know your body as holy, your want as holy and your shattered heart as whole. Continue to believe in lucky pennies, shooting stars and signs from the universe.

Soul
Like this.
My heart was broken with Z. Now may face with Y. But a voice came, Y truly dresses up yesterday. He knows the restaurant is just a simple one and that we be just lounging in his house but he dressed his best. Even better than the last time we met. Let it be this week.

Sadhguru
This is a game. I want to win, but if I lose, it's okay.
As ur karma becomes lighter, ur reactions becomes lighter. That's means ur whole life and existence is moving more from unconsciousness to consciousness. That's why ur reactions are becoming less. The more unconscious u are, the more reactive you are. The more conscious you are, the less reactive you are.

Soul
Y read my messages but no response. The old me would have reacted. The new me is not. I m just being me and he just being him. This could be the week he goes into silence mode. He is very affected by work or his mother.