Pluto in Two of Hearts

Jan 3 aft 1

Now that I have decided that I want Y for sure..going beyond the challenge..
I can read this in a more meaningful way

This year Pluto challenges is in communication in relationship.

Destiny's Pluto is Two of Hearts
A major goal for u this year will be to have a successful love relationship or friendship. For this reason, this is the year that u will have to make many changes within ur self in the name of love, friendship or romance.
Whether u are interested in the partner of ur dreams or just good, close friendships, u will have to take a different approach in ur life if u r to be successful in this area.
Love and intimacy requires compromise and cooperation, two of the keynotes for this card of the 'love union'
Ur intense desire for this closeness will cause u to confront some of the parts of urself that tend to keep this intimacy from u.
At times, this may seem very challenging or difficult, but it helps to keep in mind ur reasons for facing this situations - to have more intimacy in ur life.

Affirmation - I create the ideal love partner. Satisfaction in my love life, my friendships, and lovers are mine to embrace.

Soul
Yes...what prevents me was my negative mind in Seven of Clubs...and lack of faith in Seven of Spades.
When there is challenge I focus on the challenge and can't move..neither here nor there. Neither commit nor run off...that is a decision by itself.
Me always ignoring or saying no to the issue of children whenever Z asked me is a decision by itself. It is interpreted as NO.
In the end we are off as he promptly married another immediately after we broke up.
Well, no more.
I don't know what will happen...at least I am now SAYING YES..I am making a commitment.
I know Y is the partner that I want...
I know that I will regret losing him if I still sit on the fence, postponing.