My karma on coffee dissolved - I shudder at the thought of drinking brewed black coffee

Jan 3 eve

Met some old friends. Been about 3 to 4 months since I met them. One of them looked really aged. We all asked her to restart her Shambavi that she has stopped.

Today, it was dessert time. So coffee to be ordered. There were no decaf and so I tot just order normal black coffee. When it comes, my whole body rebel; suddenly the tot of drinking the black coffee generates fear in me. I just can't bear that I m going to put so much stimulant into my body. A shudder went through me. That's when I knew my love affair with black brew coffee is over.
For now only half cup of decaf and local coffee.

Compulsiveness to consciousness by Sadhguru
Relationship
You as a person are a body, a certain accumulation of experience and information which has formed certain attitudes. A certain kind of mind, a certain kind of body, a certain type of emotion, certain types of likes and dislikes, certain types of opinions - a bundle of all this is "you". The same ingredient but of a different kind is "the other" in the relationship.
There are moments when suddenly, it seems to fit and everything is beautiful, everything - the physicality, the mentality, the emotional aspects - is compatible. But the next moment, whichever way u try, it does not fit.
A body, a mind and emotional set up are trying to somehow fit into another body, another mind and another emotional set up.
These two bodies, mind and emotions can never, ever fit perfectly every moment of twenty four hours. They can never fit perfectly.
If anyone think there is such a possibility, he is going to waste his life. If he understands that it is only at certain moments when it can fall into place, otherwise it cannot, then they will conduct it in a different way.
Then you will see, relationships have various colours but every colour and hue that it takes could be enjoyed.


Soul
Mmm that's explain Y and me. One day we are so on and the next day is cooling period as if the previous day connection/closeness never happens.
What I learned from Y is that he needs time alone. I need not take his silence personally. And I too take the time to delve in deeper into myself.

Compulsiveness to consciousness
U need a relationship only because somewhere, there is some sense of incompleteness in you. If u take away this, if u attain to that state within u which has nothing to do with the other, then every person wants to be with u. Everyone wants to be with you because ur need is gone. If u open up, u don't have to call, they will come anyway.

So if u want to have wonderful relationships, do not try to manage the relationship. See how to enhance who u are on all levels - physically, mentally, emotionally and energy-wise.
If u enhance urself into a very beautiful state, everyone wants to hold a relationship with u.