Jeff Foster - Rest Deeply

Dec 29 aft 1

From Jeff Foster
An Invitation To Rest Deeply.
Here’s some very good news.
Right here, right now, in this moment, you don’t have to ‘figure out’ the rest of your life, no matter what anyone says.
You don’t need all the answers. They will come, in time, or not, or perhaps the unnecessary questions will fall away.
There is no rush. Life is not in a hurry. Be like the seasons. Winter is not trying to become summer. Spring does not rush towards autumn. The grass grows at its own pace.
The choices that will be made will be made, and you’ve no choice about that. The decisions that will happen will happen, events will unfold, but right now perhaps you don’t need to know the solutions or the outcomes or how best to proceed.
Perhaps not knowing is a welcome guest at life’s banquet. Perhaps openness to possibility is a beloved friend. Perhaps even confusion can come to rest here.
And so, instead of trying to ‘fix’ our lives, instead of trying to neatly resolve the unresolveable and quickly complete the epic story of a fictitious ‘me’, we simply relax into utter not knowing, unravelling in the warm embrace of mystery, sinking deeply into the moment, savouring it fully, in all its uniqueness and wonder.
And then, perhaps without any effort, without any struggle or stress, without ‘you’ being involved at all, the true answers will emerge in their own sweet time.

Soul
True...mmmm
Guess my control freak was working today.
I want to neatly close and wrap up Y and move on...
Guess, I was trying to bolt instead to feel the sadness.
Father...perhaps what I need to let go of my need to control my life.
Let it unfolds...
Butha suddhi is coming also...
Everything is falling in place.
At least let me rejoice in the closure of Z...
Let me be not so quick to close on Y too..to close on sadness....

Father, alas I may now look to unravelling the Osho tarot Key cards that I got yesterday. I didn't want to interpret yesterday as I wanted a closure not another journey. I just wanted to rest....as I tot I have done enough.

The Key
What is repressed.
    Laziness
"When you are lazy, it is a negative taste: you simply feel that you have no energy, you simply feel dull; you simply feel sleepy, you simply feel dead. When you are in a state of non-doing then you are full of energy – it is a very positive taste.
The message this card brings is that this poolside resort is not your final destination. The journey isn't over yet, as that white bird flying into the vastness of the sky is trying to show. Your complacency might have arisen from a real sense of achievement, but now it's time to move on. No matter how fuzzy the slippers, how tasty the pina colada, there are skies upon skies still waiting to be explored.

Soul
Yes, when I saw the similiarity between the challenging situations of Z and Y..I wanted to bolt. I tot I already learned my lesson..why come back?


2. Yin card – female passive
Postponement
 "Postponement is simply stupid. Tomorrow you will also have to decide, so why not today?

Soul
I was undecided on Y...and I didnt't want to know my feelings on him.
It was better to fall sick and numb myself with medication than to think of us.
Best to wrap and close him.
But today physical release on him and my subsequent cries tells me that I have fallen for him...
Wish I didn't but I have...
Thats why I am trying to close this as fast as I can...
I tot I was in control of the situation but it went beyond me now..

3.Yang card – male active
The Dream
The very idea of togetherness arises because we are alone, and the aloneness hurts. We want to drown our aloneness in relationship. That's why we become so much involved in love. Try to see the point. Ordinarily you think you have fallen in love with a woman or with a man because she is beautiful, he is beautiful. That is not the truth. The truth is just the opposite: you have fallen in love because you cannot be alone. You were going to fall. You were going to avoid yourself somehow or other

. Real love comes not from trying to solve our neediness by depending on another, but by developing our own inner richness and maturity. Then we have so much love to give that we naturally draw lovers towards us.

Soul
Thats the conflict.
I truly wanted my partner but the other part of me know that having a partner doesn't resolve situation but still I wanted it.


4. Meditation
Control
"Controlled persons are always nervous because deep down turmoil is still hidden. If you are uncontrolled, flowing, alive, then you are not nervous. There is no question of being nervous – whatsoever happens, happens. You have no expectations for the future, you are not performing.

 The image of the King of Clouds reminds us to take a deep breath, loosen our neckties and take it easy. If mistakes happen, it's okay. If things get a little out of hand, it's probably just what the doctor ordered. There is much, much more to life than being "on top of things."

Soul
Exactly...I was afraid that I lost my control..and it is time to bolt.

Father,...Control is what kept me safe...but it is also what prevents me from having what I wants.


5. Insight into the Body
Innocence
"Zen says that if you drop knowledge – and within knowledge everything is included, your name, your identity, everything, because this has been given to you by others – if you drop all that has been given by others, you will have a totally different quality to your being – innocence.

The old man in this card radiates a childlike delight in the world. There is a sense of grace surrounding him, as if he is at home with himself and with what life has brought.The pink flowers cascading around him represent a time of letting go, relaxation and sweetness. They are a response to his presence, a reflection of his own qualities.The innocence that comes from a deep experience of life is childlike, but not childish.
 The innocence of children is beautiful, but ignorant. It will be replaced by mistrust and doubt as the child grows and learns that the world can be a dangerous and threatening place. But the innocence of a life lived fully has a quality of wisdom and acceptance of the ever-changing wonder of life.


Soul
Body said it is fine,..
I am now 46...I have survived all my Sevens...
I have not only survived, I have learned and love myself even more...
So truly need not be afraid of suffering or my Sevens...
They are meant for me to learn that I am a true flower in every aspect...Seven of Clubs, Seven of Hearts and Seven of Spades...

Insight into the Heart
Rebirth
Everything passes by you; your consciousness reflects it but it does not get identified.Your consciousness is only a mirror. Neither do you come, nor do you go. Things come and go. You become young, you become old; you are alive, you are dead. All these states are simply reflections in an eternal pool of consciousness."

Whatever the space you're in right now – sleepy and depressed, or roaring and rebellious – be aware that it will evolve into something new if you allow it. It is a time of growth and change.

Soul
Yes, Seven of Heart phase now.
Time of growth and change....don't let my defense mechanism of control lead me now..

7. Insight into Being
Conditioning
"Unless you drop your personality you will not be able to find your individuality. Individuality is given by existence; personality is imposed by the society.
It's time to take a look at your own reflection in the pond, and make a move to break out of whatever you have been conditioned by others to believe about yourself. Dance, run, jog, do gibberish – whatever is needed to wake up the sleeping lion within

Soul
Mmmm...

8. Consciousness Understanding
Travelling
"Life is a continuity always and always. There is no final destination it is going towards. Just the pilgrimage, just the journey in itself is life, not reaching to some point, no goal – just dancing and being in pilgrimage, moving joyously, without bothering about any destination.

The tiny figure moving on the path through this beautiful landscape is not concerned about the goal. He or she knows that the journey is the goal, the pilgrimage itself is the sacred place. Each step on the path is important in itself. When this card appears in a reading, it indicates a time of movement and change. It may be a physical movement from one place to the next, or an inner movement from one way of being to another. But whatever the case, this card promises that the going will be easy and will bring a sense of adventure and growth; there is no need to struggle or plan too much. The Traveling card also reminds us to accept and embrace the new, just as when we travel to another country with a different culture and environment than the one we are accustomed to. This attitude of openness and acceptance invites new friends and experiences into our lives.

Soul
Another movement...not sure where I am going...
Guess, the Five of Diamonds in Ruling 7 years card (age 42 to 48) is still being unravelled..