Osho Tarot - The Key

Dec 28 mor

Just did The Key card in Osho tarot. A new scheme.
Somehow Postponement card keep on showing...when I saw it I couldnt' relate.
Now that I am typing this..i suddenly realised...postponement into going deeper into spiritual path.

This morning, such silent contentment. There were no singing nor laughing. Just silence feeling the lovely energy from the Shrine.
So thankful I have the shrine with me. Vijii will join them soon.

Father, I postponed cos I don't want to lose myself...what if I go in and I lose my desire for my partner, my family, my worldly life..
I already lost my food and favourite drinks...
Really not sure...
I am not like Y, who isn't interested in the world and hence there is nothing to lose.
I like living in this world....so there is a feeling of loss.

Because I have this issue, I invalidate his issue of going into Ashram....and of course the North Node in Leo also suggest that. But actually him turning towards Ashram is a major breakthrough...as he was supposed to follow his Brahmin lineage of devotion and producing children...
So, he actually did step out...
Whereas I didn't...


The Osho tarot's Key
What is repressed - Laziness
Yin card (female) - Postponememt
Yang card (male) - The Dream
Meditation - Control
Insight into body - Innocence
Insight into heart - Rebirth
Insight into being - Conditioning
Consciousness Understanding - Travelling.

Soul
Seem to coincide the message I received during practices this morning.
"There are many fish out there. Need not worry about loss of Y and Z. Just move on. Just travel on"

Mmmm, guess now i know why the Yin card in me wants me to move on...whereas the Yang card in me that pushes me to stay on.
But Yin card not strong, cos also worries about lack of other fish...
Well, there are.
If Linga can bring Y into my life.....eventhough we were 'dormant' for the past one year...and active within 3 weeks...
Anything can happen in one day.
Main thing for me is to stay focus on the abundance of the Universe.

(Jan 7 - wrong interpretation...its actually postponement over Y)





Today's card...Ace of Spades
My Daily Card
The Ace of Spades
The Ace of Spades means a SECRET of some kind. This card was the emblem for many of the secret societies of old, being the 'key to the mysteries'. As such, it represents the 'truth that lies behind the veil of illusion'. So, it has often been the symbol for the study and pursuit of esoteric knowledge and mystical wisdoms.
The Ace of Spades is also one of the traditional cards for death, change and transformation. With this mystical card in your spread, it is certain that you will go through some sort of death and rebirth, or at the least, some important and powerful changes.
Another facet of the Ace of Spades is the desire for work. Since all Aces represent new beginnings, the Ace of Spades can come up when we are preparing to launch a new job or occupation.

Soul
True..today end of my compulsion of asking a guy to stay out of neediness..not because he is the right guy.

I want someone like Y, with bit of Z and about 40 years old.
I want someone spiritually empowered that can propel us both.
I want someone in touch with their emotion so we can spear head instead of stuck in physical and mental. Z was physical and Y was mental
I want someone who is also mentally compatible for us to spar together
And someone physically compatible so we can have pleasure together.

Father, alas I understand what the meaning of having someone whole, spiritual, emotional, mental and physically compatible..