Remembering my appreciation for Sevens

Dec 29 aft

Was updating my blog and saw this post back in Dec 21

Soul
Yes, I can finally appreciate this.
Now that I know it is my fear...just see it, feel the past and then do the Now.
Alas, finally can see and appreciate Sevens....and I have loads in my life.
Father, I used to say that you are not fair; giving me loads of challenges.
Now for the first time I can see that you truly love me....and just want to re-teach me the abundance that I have inside me, that is all hidden and covered up.

And coincidentally today in Facebook.
Jeff Foster

From lack to abundance
Try to get what you want,
and it's already far away.

Be what you want,
hold it in your heart,
and it's already yours,
forever

The rest is details.

The rest, you never really wanted anyway.


Soul
Thats how I feel just now after Shoonya.

Anyway, Y is not the one...he is just my Jupiter card, my friend in spiritual path..nothing more
Also, this is the 3rd hiccups in 3 weeks...no more looking for conflicts.
Ends it while its good.
My true Soul mate will just happen...I know Linga will make it happen.
Meanwhile its my role to make myself happen the way I want to be...happy...

Was updating my blog and saw this:
Recurrent negative feelings - those that loop in the same cycles again and again without changing - are unmet knots of our past that got frozen in time for the precise reason that our past got frozen in time for the precise reason that they were not met with kindness or acceptance.
All any feelings wants is to be welcomed with tenderness. It wants room to unfold. It wants to relax and tell its story. It want to dissolve like a thousand writhing snake that with a flick of kindness becomes harmless strands of rope.

Soul
Yes...just now when I cry over Y...
I didn't judge myself...I was glad that I finally able to cry...to know that I was sad..
To know that I miss us...but thats not to be...
But this time..I didn't break down nor trying to hold on to Y.
I know it is let go time....and I know the right one will come along.
I want to believe in abundance instead of lack...

Now that I lost Y...I am enjoying my cup of coffee...my friend in comfort..

Father, a tot came.
I think Linga just 'use' Y for the purpose to let me have final closure on Z.
Y himself said he has never chatted so much in his life.
Especially more so on type-chat.
He doesn't know what comes over him the last one month.
But he has waken up now...
Mmmm,

Women Food and God
But the fast track up and out of the physicality has become maladaptive for two main reasons: it truncates our ability to feel and therefore to move through the situations that arise in our lives. If u don't allow a feeling to begin, u also don't let it end.

Soul
Mmm, looks like there are remnants still..and hence Y is here for me to experience the let go...