Sadhguru on Shiva

Dec 29 eve 1

When I saw Sadhguru on the video. I suddenly cried and asked Sadhguru for help. Felt a good release after the tears.
Father, now I can truly see me falling sick as a form of defense mechanism to make myself numb so I don't feel sad.
Better be sick then sad. When sick with medication, I can just sleep my life away. After a few days of sleep, the sadness will be all covered up and I will be fine again.
Guess that why I met Y.
There were remnants of hidden sadness.
Alas...I am releasing sadness..and I know I am cured of my illness. I no longer need illness to hide my sadness. It is much more healthy to express my sadness rather than to be sick.
Now truly Nine of Diamonds...choosing sadness over sickness....


Shiva
His body is just an instrument. Everything in the existence is just an instrument to ultimate realisation.
When Shiva saw Pavarthi trying to find fulfillment in the normal process of life. He told her that this is not the way to fulfillment and start to teach her yoga of self realisation.
Yoga is getting mastery over the various process of life.
Intimacy means there is no resistance. This person is absolutely open to what is being said. A thinking and arguing mind will argue. For Pavarthi it worked wonderfully and she become realised. You either sit as a Devi or as a child.

As Shiva expound the yoga. Pavarthi took on the many forms of the consciousness. From pleasantness to unpleasantness. Shiva brought her to a place to realise all these is just a play of energy. She is none of these things. All these forms that she can take and to harness the energy to make the forms is a science of yoga. Whatever Pavarthi went thru is not you. Pavarthi asked But how do we realise that this is not me.

Sadaa Vasantam.
Sadaa Vasantam.

Soul
Same message as The Key -
Insight into the Heart
Rebirth
Everything passes by you; your consciousness reflects it but it does not get identified.Your consciousness is only a mirror. Neither do you come, nor do you go. Things come and go. You become young, you become old; you are alive, you are dead. All these states are simply reflections in an eternal pool of consciousness."

Whatever the space you're in right now – sleepy and depressed, or roaring and rebellious – be aware that it will evolve into something new if you allow it. It is a time of growth and change.


Shiva
Either u go for total involvement or u allow me to access you.

Soul
I m allowing. That's why I don't go for total involvement.

Shiva
One aspect that couldn't allow the energy to burst forth is self preservation. That's why u can't be intense.
The meaning of self preservation is constantly battling against death.
The greatest calamity of the human mind is that it is against death. The moment u reject death, u also reject life.
It is the ego that is so afraid of its death. Its main location is in the face. Once ur ego is not a problem, then death is not a problem.

Soul
The moment I reject sadness; I m also rejecting life. That's why I numb myself unconsciously. My ego is the one rejecting sadness. But with Sadhguru I just open up and can allow my sadness to be released.

Shiva
Once u know the relaxation of death, then life becomes absolutely effortless.
Death is the creation of the unaware. If u are aware, death is life and life alone.

When we talk about transcendence. We are looking going beyond time and space. U are aspiring more than physical.
It is only the ignorant, the foolish try to stop the process of death. The aware are seeing how to make death into an opportunity to move from one dimension to the other. Anyway nature release u from physical. If u do it with awareness, that could become ur ultimate liberation

Soul
Again about my all Sevens. I can see it as suffering or opportunity to transcends.
That's why Sevens are either physical challenges or spiritual opportunity.


Sadhguru
If one has to beyond a certain compulsiveness; one has to raise to a different level of consciousness which he becomes free. Or another way is he has to transform his energy.
Raising to high level of consciousness generally is very deceptive. If u put them to test, they failed miserably as mind can deceives you.
Transforming ur energy is a better way because here u cannot fool yourself. Because here u can't imagine things. U may want to imagine you are in heaven, but nothing moves here unless u do the right thing with it. U may even want to imagine that u are very close to God but nothing moves here unless something genuinely happens.
So transforming ur energy is a more sure way path, a more certain path. All you need a certain dedication. If one works sufficiently upon his energy. One can get enlightened on the level of his energy.

Shiva
There are a few people here who laugh, who cries, who shakes as if they are possessed or even try to mop the floor. Why are they like that?
The devotees of Shiva are known to be extremist. Extremist not again somebody but with themselves. Devotion means u don't matter anymore. Who u are is just nothing.

Universe is an empty shell where ur mind frolics endlessly.  U know this, only u can play. One who does not know how to play, cannot know love or devotion or meditation. All these can only happen to somebody who is playful. Playful does not mean irresponsible. U must play.

Soul
I m playful but I got hurt and then I blamed myself for my playfulness.
Just like I knew Y is not right but I played and then I got attached and now I blame myself for playing in the first place.

Same message from The Key
Meditation
Control
Controlled persons are always nervous because deep down turmoil is still hidden. If you are uncontrolled, flowing, alive, then you are not nervous.There is a time and a place for control, but if we put it in charge of our lives we end up totally rigid. His world is ordered and perfect, but it is not alive – he cannot allow any spontaneity or vulnerability to enter it
The image of the King of Clouds reminds us to take a deep breath, loosen our neckties and take it easy. If mistakes happen, it's okay. If things get a little out of hand, it's probably just what the doctor ordered. There is much, much more to life than being "on top of things."

Soul
I pride on control cos I am afraid that I can be too playful.
Those things that hurt me was because I was too playful, just being open to anything.
Even my relationship with Z was just me being playful...
With Y too...and both times I got hurt..
I told myself I don't want to play anymore...