Matt Licata - you are between world

 Jan 1


Reading Matt Licata..love this..exactly how I feel in this journey..

You thought that as you awakened, you would feel less. But you are seeing that love continues to ask you to feel more. There was an idea that as your heart opened, your vulnerability would lessen, but you are more raw and tender now than you’ve ever been. You wondered if as you grew spiritually, you would be more detached, not care quite so much, and rest as the “witness” of your life from beyond it all. But, alas, you care so much you are burning up inside.
Something new is being born in you, but something else is dying. Everything you thought you needed is falling away, but what it is being replaced with is not yet clear. You are between the worlds, dancing between broken and whole, with light and dark being weaved within you.
You know that things will never be the same again, but you still do not know what is coming next or even where you are, or what is truly being asked of you. This unknowing groundless ground is your home now, and the creativity and the intelligence here are overwhelming. Yes, things are colored by a certain fragrance of sadness, but it is a sadness the mind could never know, for it has nothing to do with something being missing. It is a sadness which is pouring out of your overflowing heart. You are willing to give your heart to others and to this world, for you are seeing that this is why you have come here.

Soul
So true...especially now I am feeling this with Y...
Knowing we will never be...but just enjoying the moment with him...

Now I understand our Osho Relating cards between I and Y that I draw two days ago, on Monday.

Me and my contribution - Controlled
Controlled persons are always nervous because deep down turmoil is still hidden. If you are uncontrolled, flowing, alive, then you are not nervous. There is no question of being nervous – whatsoever happens, happens. You have no expectations for the future, you are not performing

Y input into relating - The Rebel
"People are afraid, very much afraid of those who know themselves. They have a certain power, a certain aura and a certain magnetism, a charisma that can take out alive, young people from the traditional imprisonment. The enlightened man cannot be enslaved – that is the difficulty – and he cannot be imprisoned. Every genius who has known something of the inner is bound to be a little difficult to be absorbed; he is going to be an upsetting force.

Composite Energy - Experiencing
"Experiencing" is the feeling of wonder itself, the thrill of communion, the gentle touch of our connectedness with all that surrounds us.
Nature doesn't bang any drums when it bursts forth into flower, nor play any dirges when the trees let go of their leaves in the fall. But when we approach her in the right spirit, she has many secrets to share. If you haven't heard nature whispering to you lately, now is a good time to give her the opportunity.

The Insight - Sharing
"As you move above to the fourth center – that is the heart – your whole life becomes a sharing of love. The third center has created the abundance of love. By reaching to the third center in meditation, you have become so overflowing with love, with compassion, and you want to share. It happens at the fourth center – the heart.
The Queen of Fire is so rich, so much a queen, that she can afford to give. It doesn't even occur to her to take inventories or to put something aside for later. She dispenses her treasures without limits, welcoming all and sundry to partake of the abundance, fertility and light that surrounds her. When you draw this card, it suggests that you too are in a situation where you have an opportunity to share your love, your joy and your laughter. And in sharing, you find that you feel even more full. There is no need to go anywhere or to make any special effort. You find that you can enjoy sensuality without possessiveness or attachment, can give birth to a child or to a new project with an equal sense of creativity fulfilled. Everything around you seems to be "coming together" now. Enjoy it, ground yourself in it, and let the abundance in you and around you overflow.

Soul
When I got this card on Monday morning...I was bit pissed..why me again?
I don't want to share...
Then in early afternoon, I knew that I must open up and I did a professional message on Isha pgm.
He replied quite fast..and I tot at least we are now on professional communication...a good ending..
Later in the evening he message me again...and as I was driving I call and we talked..
At night after watching Adiyogi alayam video I messaged him...and we chatted again...we shared our shrines...for one hour...
Next morning on Tuesday he messaged me again..we chatted sporadically throughout Tuesday..
Yesterday was the finale of sharing new year together..
Today another day...
Amen..
Truly don't know where we are going.....just enjoy each other...thats all I can do...
Remind myself of the Travelling card in the Key cards that I draw last week and also this week card that I draw.

Travelling
"Life is a continuity always and always. There is no final destination it is going towards. Just the pilgrimage, just the journey in itself is life, not reaching to some point, no goal – just dancing and being in pilgrimage, moving joyously, without bothering about any destination.
The tiny figure moving on the path through this beautiful landscape is not concerned about the goal. He or she knows that the journey is the goal, the pilgrimage itself is the sacred place. Each step on the path is important in itself. When this card appears in a reading, it indicates a time of movement and change. It may be a physical movement from one place to the next, or an inner movement from one way of being to another. But whatever the case, this card promises that the going will be easy and will bring a sense of adventure and growth; there is no need to struggle or plan too much. The Traveling card also reminds us to accept and embrace the new, just as when we travel to another country with a different culture and environment than the one we are accustomed to. This attitude of openness and acceptance invites new friends and experiences into our lives.