Jan 10
Woke up before 7 am...had a very good sleep.
Woke up having a smile on my face. Hear my nephews voices outside my room.
Suddenly said I love Y.
Falling in love is just like us falling into ourselves during meditation.
So instead of lamenting why I can fall in love...just like that..even when the circumstance is no conducive...Just be happy that I can..
I will be hurt..but I will be happy too...
Shower and start pratices.
Sang guru pooja and start to dance..
Breathing was not so great cos was coughing.
Shakti was intensive..can feel the build up of energy. Was momentarily lost in office tots during Kapala Bhakti 2nd and 3rd cycle...but came back. Towards the end just laughter and singing.
Shambavi was great.
Towards the end, it was so lovely sitting there..feeling cherished..I sat for quite a long while.
Everything is just perfect.
I can hear the tots in my mind..but I can also hear the silence behind the tots..
I just choose the silence...and suddenly the chattering tots in my mind no longer matters..
What matters is my contentment and joy.
Arriving at the mall..and still feeling cosy after the practices.
The tot of coffee that will drown this cosiness didn't sit well.
Have a cup of tea instead...
Tot of Y..and know our meet up today.
Check our email and saw that he didn't reply on my message.
Saw my 7thunder and got Three of Heart under Saturn.
Anyway...just msg cos he has offer the 'leave' yesterday and now its my turn. I know its stupid but we are friends no matter what.
He replied my message immediately.
Just now checked to Osho tarot card today...
The Fool
"A fool is one who goes on trusting; a fool is one who goes on trusting against all his experience. You deceive him, and he trusts you; and you deceive him again, and he trusts you; and you deceive him again, and he trusts you. Then you will say that he is a fool, he does not learn. His trust is tremendous; his trust is so pure that nobody can corrupt it. Be a fool in the Taoist sense, in the Zen sense. Don't try to create a wall of knowledge around you. Whatsoever experience comes to you, let it happen, and then go on dropping it. Go on cleaning your mind continuously; go on dying to the past so you remain in the present, here-now, as if just born, just a babe.
Moment to moment, and with every step, the Fool leaves the past behind. He carries nothing more than his purity, innocence and trust, symbolized by the white rose in his hand. At this moment the Fool has the support of the universe to make this jump into the unknown. Adventures await him in the river of life. The card indicates that if you trust your intuition right now, your feeling of the "rightness" of things, you cannot go wrong. Your actions may appear "foolish" to others, or even to yourself, if you try to analyze them with the rational mind. But the "zero" place occupied by the Fool is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experience.
Soul
So true...
In my case..I have taken the Jump....and declared and he said nope..
Whats else to be afraid of...
After the bad experience with Z..which I survived and got to know myself better...nothing can hurt me anymore..
Sadhguru
For one who seeing this life as a stepping stone for a larger possibilities. If u r seeing this event of life as the goal itself, for him there is failure and success. If u seeing this life as a stepping stone. Either good or bad thing, u use it for ur well being. It doesn't matter what the hell matter with ur life. If u see this life as stepping stone, whether good or bad, u just see it as useful.
Soul
Yea..just have to go beyond all my Sevens...
I must be truly someone 'great' to be given so many Sevens...
My Soul must have chosen this karmic life for a reason.
Who am I to resist...
Suddenly tears come. I feel overwhelmed..
At long last...all Sevens no longer matters..
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