Moment to moment

Jan 2 aft

An unexpected conversation with Ye.

She too shared that recently she has a messages relationship with someone for about five month plus. She just ended it a few weeks ago as she is married and so is the other guy. She felt that they both have crossed the line.

I told her about Y and she said she can see that I have already fallen for Y and infact I am blushing when I share about Y.
I said we are so good for each other, the only thing is the difference in age...
And I am also worried about the future...what happens when we are both old..she said that its looking too much in the future..
She said this age thing is something that is here as a challenge...

Mmm...just as I tot I was good with Z but the only thing was the children and his money issue. For the money, I try to adapt but the children I couldn't give way. It was only at the end when Z broke off that I agree on children. With Z, my lesson was to go with the flow..but I couldn't...

Now with Y...I am trying to go with the flow..but I don't know how he feels...

Ye asked me how long this has been going on...I told her about one and half month
Ye said if it is her, she would asked the guy his intention. She would tell him that she is no longer young and she don't want to waste time on something that cannot materialise...

Soul
How about Z?? I knew children is something I didn't want..and yet I continue..didnt address it..
No...no don't go for defense mechanism..don't activate my Control card..
Now I can only go with the flow...
Anyway.. I will face this after Sadhguru's pgm next weekend..

And besides this week Osho cards:
What is the resolution?
There are times when the only thing to do is to wait. The seed has been planted, the child is growing in the womb, the oyster is coating the grain of sand and making it into a pearl. This card reminds us that now is a time when all that is required is to be simply alert, patient, waiting. The woman pictured here is in just such an attitude: contented, with no trace of anxiety, she is simply waiting. Through all the phases of the moon passing overhead she remains patient, so in tune with the rhythms of the moon that she has almost become one with it. She knows it is a time to be passive, letting nature take its course. But she is neither sleepy nor indifferent; she knows it is time to be ready for something momentous. It is a time full of mystery, like the hours just before the dawn. It is a time when the only thing to do is to wait.

Soul
Whats more important is for me to see whether Y is truly what I want...
I know I respect and enjoy our mental interaction, we have good communication...and we are spiritually compatible.
What I don't know is our physical compatiblity..
How about emotion??
Well, he is more emotion than me...

Today card is Ten of Diamond...
So thats means my value is powerful and I remain true to it.
I will definitely wait until after Sadhguru's event.
We will both be there..so lets see..

Just checked my Osho card for the day.
Moment to Moment
"The past is no more and the future is not yet: both are unnecessarily moving in directions which don't exist. One used to exist, but no longer exists, and one has not even started to exist. The only right person is one who lives moment to moment, whose arrow is directed to the moment, who is always here and now; wherever he is, his whole consciousness, his whole being, is involved in the reality of here and in the reality of now. That's the only right direction. Only such a man can enter into the golden gate. The present is the golden gate. Here–now is the golden gate. And you can be in the present only if you are not ambitious – no accomplishment, no desire to achieve power, money, prestige, even enlightenment, because all ambition leads you into the future. Only a non-ambitious man can remain in the present. A man who wants to be in the present has not to think, has just to see and enter the gate. Experience will come, but experience has not to be premeditated." Osho
This card challenges us to move away from our preoccupations with other spaces and other times, and stay alert to what is happening in the here and now. Life is a great ocean in which you can play if you drop all your judgments, your preferences, and the attachment to the details of your long–term plans. Be available to what comes your way, as it comes. And don't worry if you stumble or fall; just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, have a good laugh, and carry on.

Soul
Yes..don't use the yardstick on Z as a comparison..I have matured since then.
And Y is truly different..and I have already picked Y above Z anytime.