Alternative view on others - an opening

Feb 18
Father, did my practices. Shakti and Shambavi were fine. I admitted I was feeling bit short of time and plan to rush through but I went in deep.

Actually, I wasn't that exasperated with her mail nor T's reply. I knew that's just P. But after C's call, I knew that I need to stop P as I cannot afford for C to go.

Evening
Just finished Shoonya, such contentment. Thanks to Sadhguru.
I knew I need to gather us all back together. I recalled the gathering where M and I thrashed out our differences and we make up and become good friends.
I then knew that its time for us to gather again.
I spoke to L and she agreed P's parental communications behaviour. She also told me that she had received negative feedback on P too.
I then shared that I had a Nine of Spades in my ex-staff, St. He is a very good staff and respectful too. However his peers cannot stand him.
Suddenly tot of P's similar problem.
I never knew P was so parental as previously I hold the leadership role. But I recalled when I let go and came back to the volunteer meet, I was boycotted. I recalled I was so hurt and betrayed as P used to respect and support me. L told me she remembered the incident and felt bad for me.
We both agreed that P was hurt by me letting go of the team and came back. I told L I knew and hence forgiven P. But of course, the visit to Ashram helped.
And now reading my Lunar in Scorpio also expanded my empathy to forgive.

In a volunteers type environment, P's parental mode is destructive as there will be no followers.

Mmm, suddenly a tot came. On one hand P can said that volunteers meet is ineffective. But the other side is, it could ineffective to her because she cannot get followers.

That is why she insist that volunteers must give full commitment. And if they don't, she will pulled the whip. She demands commitment. In a volunteers environment, it is peer to peer, this type of communications alienated others.

For me and C, volunteers meet is productive as we both can get volunteers. We are able to inspire. Me via my joy, and her via compassion.

If we follow P, stagnancy sets in. No growth. P is great with execution. She is military.

Instead of me and C fights over P and K.

I think C and I be in charge of the volunteers meet and Sathsang Guide.

Let P and K be in charge of events execution. I know C and I can get more followers for P and K to command.

Win win situation. Different energy for different purpose. We need not be in conflict, we can complement. All parties just want Isha to grow.

Let me sleep on this. Not sure if I can take this up.