Resentment arise..when I have taken too much and overburden myself

Feb 8
Father, didn't do hata today. Woke up 7 am and it was raining, so I slept and wake up 8 plus and did practices.

Download Z's natal chart, his Moon is in Scorpio and Rising in Sagitarius. Real optimisms vs my hidden pessimism.

Found out his Lunar is in Leo, just as his South node in Leo. His life lesson is to learn to accept love.

That's exactly what I told him previously, that he made it so difficult to love him. After awhile, his partner will give up.

I have got both Lunar and South Node in Scorpio, hence he is my mirror. Now that I can see how Lunar shaped him, I m going to read and learn my Lunar lesson.

Lunar in Scorpio
Not to be swayed in my values.

Soul
Yea, its been 4 years, I admitted I have swayed in hata. From 5 times to 4 times. Shoonya only done during work days. And I have reduced my work days. .

Lunar in Scorpio
Discovery and belief in my own goodness. You are also learning to stop projecting your goodness outward by looking for someone else to believe in.
As u learn to support and trust urself by being true to ur own sense of goodness, u can begin to construct ur own boundaries and contain ur own energy. This gives u the freedom to be more trusting of those around u, since it eliminates the need to give away ur power.
This will also lead to the realisation that it is alright for u to be successful and to be in the limelight. Then u can be the power of ur own throne and rise to success.

Soul
Yea, maybe that's why Z and I are not meant to be. With Z, I know I would slack in my yoga practices.
I had wanted to give my power to Z and helped him achieve his wealth so he can provides me the comfort.
Alas, I m to create my own wealth.
I do have avenue vis mindmap valley. Once Si helped me to set website, I get them to promote it.

Lunar in Scorpio
Ur ability to see through to the core of any situation can expose the diseases that prohibit a healthy body, mind or spirit, and the result is purifying and healing.
On the highest level, u r the psychic healers and spiritual generators, reconnecting the minds of ur fellow beings to a magnetic rship with the whole universe.

U need to remain aware of ur spiritual responsibility to the universal plan. This is important for your good health. It is important that u learn to let go of ur creations, whether trusting those around u with what u value or sharing ur spiritual concepts.

Soul
I resisted out of fear. Looks like it is part of my healing. It is true, I don't share because I don't trust.


Spiritual Astrology
12th house in Solar has eclipse in Pisces
When u first open ur sensitivity and compassion, unless u do it very consciously, u can at times feel overwhelmed with the need to take on the burdens of others. Not understanding where this feeling is coming from, u may accept too much emotional debris from those around u, thereby making ur burden heavier than it needs to be.

U can recognised when this is happening because u will resent those coming to u for assistance. When u feel this sense of resentment, its important to get in touch: "Am I accepting more than I really want to? Have I made myself a self appointed martyr? Am I shifting resentment and anger to those who are coming to me for help?

When u give more than u have, u deplete ur own energy, and resent those who are "taking" from u, failing to realise that no one is doing the taking, u r giving and at all times we must be responsible for what we give. U r learning to be sensitive to the self as well as to others by learning when to say no.

Soul
I learned this from my ex staff St. When I finally learned, he left the company.

12th house in Solar
As ur life progresses, sensitivity, spirituality and psychic awareness become more and more a part of ur being and u become of even greater assistance to those around u.

As ur psychic abilities grow, there are deeper insights into how u can most benefit ur fellow brings and urself with these awareness.

Soul
True.