Doing work means loss of pampering..Moon in Taurus

22 Feb
Couldn't sleep. Partly because I m reacting on work to be done for Isha. Yea, de javu. I recalled same thing during a few years ago. Back then, it was suffering as I didn't know my own issue. Doing work means a loss of pampering.
I recalled that I eventually overcome the hurdle when I decided that I allowed my fear of reporting take control over me. Once I let it be and learned to do the reporting, then the role was lifted.
Just called V and he said I am doing self abuse. I said I know.
I also know Z will say the same thing.

Unlike the other core Isha team, I don't like volunteering. I don't enjoy it. I feel trapped.
Mmm, a tot came. Just as I said previously, unlike other finance person, I don't like reporting.

Such irony. The whole concept and growth of Isha is from volunteering. So, that's why can't escape. Just like the whole concept of my department is on reporting. But in the end I did, but only after I stopped resisting, do it, conquer my dislike and in the end become good at it. At the same time, the old people all left and the right people come into my life.
Back then, I finally overcome it with Isha tools. Now I already have the tools, so it is just a change of mind set.

Moon in Taurus
The lesson is to contribute it resources to the world, thus earning your comforts and establishing self esteem. U can accomplish this by recognising other people's emotions coming into expression. This recognition can inspire u to get in touch with your creativity.
U gain a deeper sense of inner stability and self worth by supporting and contributing to the material stability of the environment.
Choosing to sacrifice the role of a pampered child empowers you to create goals and objectives that motivate you to establish a set of values.
When you notice that the people who feel good about themselves are those who are contributing their talents and and resources in a tangible way, you are inspired to manifest and establish your creativity. When you appreciate your ideals enough to manifest them, you find the confirmation of self-worth that u need.