Sensitivity - to focus on others instead of just myself

Jan 28 Eve
Did my Shoonya and Samyama, it was lovely. I felt such contentment and joy.
I m really blessed to be able to go in, just by closing my eyes, thanks to Sadhguru.

Now that my auto suppression mode is off, I can see my changing mode. I can see myself. This afternoon, when I saw C's msg, my first tot was she is playing game of avoidance and keep on asserting I m the leader. I didn't respond. Then minutes later, a tot came, this is a cry for help. She is not trying to hurt me, she is trying to tell me something important. Then I responded and ask for a meet as I have not been truly listening to her. She then tell me she sees me as a senior and leader. I told her I m envious of her ability for verbal communications. She said, she is thinking of teaching and want to go towards that.
For the first time, since I take away being sensitive, and see her and her needs. Amen. I think finally overcome my Pluto jack of clubs this year.

Mmm, mind is saying why send to Z. What he will think? He will know too much, not smart. Well, its done. I wants us to end well. I want him to know there is no regrets. I had my learnings and he is truly in my prayer of thanks.

Krishna
You faced loads of challenges when u r living intensely. So, don't worry about challenges, just live vibrantly.
Despite all abuse, he live with a smile. His live is so multi-dimensional.

Soul
Tot this is a msg to me.
Yea, I had my share of challenges. Let me see that's because I truly live. I didn't run away from life.
Now I knew when I don't move forward in life, my joints will be stiff.
Whatever I want to express, just do it. Don't have to worry about his perception of me, especially since we had said our goodbye. No more hesitations.

Sadhguru
If u burn ur senses with ur awareness. Only when ur experience is beyond senses, then ur senses are no longer important.
U begin to function beyond ur karmic influences.

When u accept one thing and reject another, u r depriving urself of something.

Krishna is an informal yogi. He doesn't live like a classical yogi.