Sadhguru's Leela - Build an altar for Z

Feb 10 Eve 1
Sadhguru
Krishna - blue magic
Just build an altar of love for her. What she becomes to u, is up to her. Whether she becomes ur mother, ur sister, ur friend, ur lover. Just build ur altar for her. What she becomes is left to her, in whatever she wants to relate to u, u leave it to her.

Budawa, But this is very hard. I may not get her.

Krishna
She is not a thing. She is not something u can possess. If u forcefully take her, u may get her but u will never know the joy of being with another being. U will then just treat her as a wayside fire to warm you for a few days. That is unrighteous. Let it percolates to other aspect of ur life.

Once u build an altar for her, she will always be there. She is ur sacred fire. She will warmed u in some way. Because she is precious to u, in some way she will be beautiful to u.

Budawa. This is so hard. This solution u offered is so hard. It takes life.

Krishna said "yes, it is hard. To live by Dharma is hard. It is not easy life but it is fulfilling life. It is very fulfilling to live like this. I never said it was easy.

If u live like this, u can have many fires in ur life, any number of different fires which will keep u warm always. u can enjoy them in different dimensions. U can enjoy life in all dimensions.

But if you just want to possess her, frustration and suffering arise. If you insist, u may only get her body, but u won't experienced her joy.

Budawa - why u give such hard solution?
In the end, he decides to wait. But he said he had to go to Himalayas as he cannot take the woman off his mind. I will go away. I don't want to hurt my friend. I don't want to see another woman in my life.

Krishna.
Not every man can stay away from women and still lives a vigorous life. If u can stay away and lives vigorously, then u r a yogi.

Most people who stayed away without the opposites (man or woman). They will become dead when they are alive. They will only able to manage avoid life but they cannot live life. They will avoid life. He will then miss both the world.

If u go away to Himalaya, u will still carry Sabia in ur mind. She will haunt u day and night. No point running away.

Budawa
I will build altar and wait. I will stay away and wait.

Soul
I cried and laughed. I have asked for a solution on how to handle my unrequited love for Z. Also doubly difficult as Z won't even talk to me.
If I had heard this solution, a month ago, I would have said an adamant no. Now that I knew my natal chart, I may not have said yes. But today, after seeing my full mirror in Z and accepting I love Z despite knowing he doesn't love me, I knew this solution is the only way to go through.

I have gone thru many suppression via control mode resulting in Rheumatoid Arthritis. Now I need to let the love flow through me. Just live it. Don't avoid it. Finally accepting. Amen.