Body mind...more sympthons

Jan 21
Woke up missing Z at 4.30 am. I just said I can't help loving him. Then I slept back and wake up 5.15 am on alarm. I had a dream of J of ex company and Y. 

My right elbow was in pain cos I folded my hand. So I did asanas instead of Suria. It was quite ok.

Breathing meditation was lovely. Shakti was fine and Shambavi too. I now love Suka Kriya, so peaceful. Now I know why Suka Kriya is meditation by itself.

Still can't get my mirror on Z yet. But at least my pride on money mgm over him is gone.

Been thinking perhaps I misguided myself, Faith means me cultivating faith, and not having a Faith card as my husband. Then I stop myself as 7thunder said Diamonds make their reason as they go along. That's why Z can drop me so abruptly and coldly without a backward glance.
I still reminiscent of our good times together.

Deb Shapiro
Digestion is connected to third chakra and the consciousness of having personal power or lack of it.

Eating has a wonderfully soporific effect. It numbs ur feelings and leaves u emotionally satiated. The more u eat, the less u feel, as if the food becomes ballast again the tides of emotion washing ur insides. Invariably, eating beyond ur physical need occurs at times of emotional stress, rship breakdown, grief, loss, fear, guilt or shame.

Food is safer, there are fewer demands, less danger of rejection. Excessive eating leads to excessive weight gain, constructing a wall that serves to ward off potential causes of hurt or rejection, but also blocked ur feelings. The wall may be a layer of protection but inside is someone longing to love and be loved.

Soul
I used books to numb myself.

Deb Shapiro
Tooth grinding is an expression of frustration or anxiety. Indicating a build up of stress, emotional tension or repressed aggression.
This is an unconscious reaction to stress, so deep relaxation or psychotherapy may help bring that unconscious level to the conscious.

Receding gums indicate a weakening of resolve, a backing down of confidence, a letting go or loss of power, often happening when u get older or retire.

Soul
My gums generally bleed in the morning, not sure if that means I'm grinding. But my teeth shows no grinding sign, not sure.

I don't like volunteering because I prefer to have time out alone. But I miss volunteering cos I gained approval.

Mmm, same as my writing. I don't want people to know and yet I want to be famous. Such conflicts.

Indigestion and heartburn
Worry and anxiety are flooding ur stomach with acrid juice.