My Joy is back

Jan 22

Father, body woke up at 4.20 am. I slept about 10.30 am, immediately sleep.

Did my Suria Namaskara and I was laughing from first cycle and throughout the 12 cycles. It has been a long time, a couple of months since such experience. I did my resting with awareness.
Breathing meditation was good too. Just so peaceful. Shakti was fine. Shambavi were great. Suka kriya is so peaceful and I was laughing during aum chanting. It has been a few months since I last laugh during aum chanting.

During the ending, I was laughing loads and I cried in thankfulness for such grace. Then in tears and laughter, I said I have come back to myself. I have found myself. The contradictory strengths and weaknesses are all me. I truly accept myself. There is nothing wrong with me. I am perfect as I am.
On me sometimes upsetting people despite being a good communicator, is fine now. I now knew also the root cause of my RA is suppressed expressions, both verbal and emotions.

Deb Shapiro
In the large intestines, the matter is finished with, ready to be excreted. This area is about releasing, so difficulties here are connected to clinging to that which has already served its purpose. There may be grief or sadness, a holding on that prolongs the pain; or fear of letting go, perhaps due to lack of trust.

Soul
So true.

Deb Shapiro
Very dry skin indicates a withdrawal of emotion, a holding back so u do not have to deal with communications or feelings.
Oily skin implies an excess of emotions - often passionate or angry ones - that are not finding release.

Nine of Hearts
Completions in love and of Universal love. Represent sharing our love and compassion.

Soul
Alas, I m fine and ready to embark on my Destiny's purpose. Amen.