Sun in Cancer

Jan 24
Father, I went into my inner journey cos I don't want to be affected by others.
Now I know the root is that I m overly sensitive as I am emotionally self centred. I was so dedicated to protecting my vulnerability, the slightest input can make me withdraw into my shell.

I can make others feel alienated as they cannot share themselves without fear of my defensive reaction.
But in my case, I suppressed and defensive mechanism attack my body instead resulting in Rheumatiod Arthritis. I think I showed my defensive reaction mainly to Z. He is the one that says I m overly sensitive. Over time, he either ignored my outburst or hide his tots. Here I tot he love me for accepting my outbursts. In reality, he just ignored it and manage me accordingly till the day he let me go without a backward glance.






I recalled Z used to say I am sensitive, and I said I am not. Now I can see that I am.


Spiritual astrology
Sun in Cancer
New focus
Sharing ur talent for emotional perception with others.

Result
Now u can care for and about them. Simultaneously, u become more objective and content with ur feelings.
The idea is to use ur natural sensitivity to recognise the emotional pain of others. This recognition empowers u to inspire them and urself, through ur sympathetic understanding of their distress.
By giving others center stage to express their feelings and vulnerabilities, u empathise with their suffering and ur vitality increases. Others appreciate ur intuitive, loving nature.
By expressing ur gifts of emotional perception in a way that serves others, u realise that ur best security rests in caring for those outside urself.

Soul
I used to be envious of C as she is able to do above. Now I know I too can do it and have to do balance my sensitivity.

Now I understand what the natal chart was saying, instead of stealthing myself against others, I must include them.