Fear of losing my pampering..

Feb 14 aft
My fear is rising, asking me to bolt from Z. Telling me that I m taking a risky path.

Sadhguru's
What u get is not important, what u give is important.
The man who received first may not be the one who is more fulfilled.
Guru pooja is a yekna (offer, sacrifice, etc).

Soul
I had difficulty in yekna cos I believed that being pampered means I m loved.
M feeling my fear, heart is shrink. The experience is similar to my panic attack in the swimming pool.
A tot came, one moment at a time. Don't look forward. As looking forward, I felt a doom of loving Z without him.


Sadhguru
If u allows urself to become Shoonya. How restful u r, is how much active u are. If u r restless, ur action will be life taking and not life giving.
If action is performed for itself, then it is pure action.
The most difficult is to be purely resting as ur mind is acting too.
Energy is something u have to work on. Kriya practices is to hold the energy daily.
Emotion is something easier to hold vs awareness and physicality.

Sadhguru
Guru
Light and light bulb. U need the light but not the light bulb. A person sitting far away may get more light vs one that sit near the bulb. U don't have to hug the bulb.

Soul
With Sadhguru, I don't need his physical presence. He is with me. With Z, I too must learn.

Sadhguru
Dharma encompass much more than duty. The difference between Dharma and Karma is that Karma is entangling and Dharma is liberating.
If u can just make urself still, there will be no illness.
Activity is 24 hours and consciously entangling. Or mind is in activity always.