Humbling insight on money

Jan 21 Aft
Father, I feel bit in middle, neither sad nor happy.

What I knew is that I must see what I actually want to do in my life and pursue it.
Now I want to buy Jan Spiller book for the right reason.

Father, I feel very humble for judging Z for spending money and pride myself for keeping money.
I had to keep cos I don't know to create money. My creation is via employment which I don't enjoy and wants to reduce. So in order to keep the equation, I had to reduce my wants.
Z can create and likes being his own boss, so he need not limit his spending, unlike me.

So, I m keeping money because of restriction of my creation, not because I m a good manager.


Jan 21 Eve
I msg Z an apology msg on my judgement on him. This is not a hope. I just want to release my guilt.

I will do my part in creating what I enjoy doing, explore on how I can make money with enjoyment. Now Ace of Diamonds in Destiny Long Range make sense.

Did my Shoonya and Samyama. I went in deep, so peaceful, so joyful, I was laughing loads. I am. fine.

Finally got the book of Spiritual Astrology by Jan Spiller and Karen McCoy. Just read the introductory and I knew this book is meant for me. Comes at the right time.

Spiritual astrology
Personal happiness is a by product of the times when ur mind is centred inside ur heart, the source of happiness. When ur mind is resting in ur heart, you are happy because u r home.

So experiencing happiness has to do with getting ur mind to go into ur heart center and remain there. Then u can do whatever u like - experience romantic love, make lots of money, do all the things that are happy and fun. But everything is approached from a feeling of lightness, of 'play', because u already have what u need to : the feeling of consistent internal well-being.

Soul
This is same msg as Sadhguru's leela on Krishna.

Spiritual astrology
Three techniques that have resulted in consciously experiencing Love on a consistent basis for me
1. Meditations and Enlightened Spiritual Teachers
2. Song lyrics
3. Astrology and self examination.

Soul
Mine is meditations, reading, writing, retreats, 7thunder cards, astrology and self examination, opening all my inner door courageously.


Spiritual astrology
Pain is inevitable but suffering is a choice.
By thinking negative tots, why this happen to me? God doesn't love me ..... and go on and on, that is suffering. It prolong the perceived negativity of the experience. It also makes recovery more difficult.

Every experience life hands us - every challenge - has good behind it that outweighs the difficulty in going through it.