Too much red meat

25 Feb

Father, I think I m done with red meat. Just had an expensive rare steak. Body doesn't like it. Had steak this afternoon too. I felt I was truly eating dead flesh.
Now body is not feeling good. So heavy, don't like the feeling.  I guess I took it cos I still want to resist. I want to be different.
Well, no more raw steak.
Father, this is second time I felt  like stopping meat as body don't like it.

Finally got my whatsapp installed. First thing is to see Z update information. He had changed status from movie to busy and he had a new smiling face. A glimmer of hope but I moved it. Maybe the pix is intended for his future wife and not me.

(1 Mar)
He even now changed to Urgent Calls only. Obviously some people is calling him non-stop. He also changed his pix to the old smiling face; the one whereby I msg him if he is ready to talk.
Surprisingly, I love him and miss him...but no more anxiousness. When I miss him, I just see his pix, love arise and I feel good. No anxiousness