Running scared

Feb 3
Father, had a weird dream. Me working in airlines and all staff had to sleep over. At first my potential partner was a White guy but somehow changed to an indian chap.

Went for a swim in the hotel. It was a big pool and fear came. I swam slowly but had some panic attacks. Then I exhale out my fear, I felt calmer. I managed to swim free style well. Once I become comfortable, I swam breast stroke, with my both feet and hand straight for some moments, allowing the water to carry me forward. I was able to do few strokes, and panic strikes and I lost my balance, but I still float.
Then I realised I won't drown in this pool, I will float even if loss of balance. I swam a couple of time, focusing on the water below me, instead of looking forward towards the front line, which triggers my fear. Yea, moment by moment works. And I finally got the hang of breast strokes, with moments of letting the water taking me forward. Amen.

Lunar in Scorpio
U need to develop more trust in the universe so u r not constantly running scared. Then u can relax and allow the universe to help u build what u feel is truly good and worthwhile, so u can find peace and enjoyment in life.

U r learning that u cannot depend on other people to set ur boundaries and contain ur energy. U need to get in touch with what is good for u and begin to act within ur own boundaries and be responsible for ur own energy.

When u connect with the power within u and learn to go with ur natural inborn flow, u will find that the universe does support u and there is good in the world - and in u. That is what u r here to learn; discovery and belief in ur own goodness.
U are also learning to stop projecting ur goodness outward by looking for someone else to believe in. As u learn to support and trust urself, u can begin to construct ur own boundaries and contain ur own energy. U can then becomes more trusting of others. U will also realised it is alright for u to be in the limelight. Then u can be the power behind ur own throne and rise to success.