Saturn in Aries

Jan 25 Eve

Spiritual Astrology by Jan Spiller

Saturn - key to public achievement
- shows the process of fulfilling ur social obligation in a public way that results in a sense of personal achievement.
- pinpoints the area of ur greatest fear and greatest desires
- the purpose, direction and social responsibility in ur life, showing those factors that can lead to a life direction that evokes the self esteem and respect for others for ur natural authority in the world.
- where the power of personal commitment to contribute to society gives u the courage to rise about inhibition and fear, making those personal corrections that are necessary to contribute in a way that is supported and respected by the rest of the world.
- pinpoints where u do not have it straight, that area where u must apply repeated efforts to gain mastery on non ego level.
Only through accepting and meeting the tests of Saturn can the bliss and freedom of states of consciousness (represented by Uranus, Neptune and Pluto) be secured on a permanent basis.

Soul 
My negative mind.

(Feb 7 - I am now facing my Seven of Clubs in Saturn...my staff just walked out on me. It was doubly hard as she claimed that she truly liked me. Alas, I hurt her feeling by extending her probation. Surprisingly, instead of seeing it as negative, I see it as a blessing in disguise and I can even see my own mirror)


Saturn in Aries
U may try: To stand out as a leader by ignoring established protocol and being impatient.

Result
This form of assertion leads the material world to exercise harsh discipline over ur energies by severe limitations.
When u endeavour to lead for self-serving motivation only, u become restless and narrow. This alienates others and results in frustration of ur productive efforts.

Soul
Not sure. But definitely in Isha, I stand out. But I lost to teacher, so I quit. Actually prefer not to lead outside work.

(Feb 7 - as I was updating my blog, I can recalled that I was a real rebellious student. I dislike schools because of its regulation. My family has let me roam free without limit. I had my first restriction from kindergarden. My teacher used to say that I am not a polite child. )



Conscious expression
Ur skills and responsibility - the ability to be a leader.
Acknowledge urself as creator of ur sense of independence and of situations in which u lead or follow. This self recognition empowers u to feel secure enough to act independently.

As u use ur leadership capacity, more and more u become aware of other people's wishes.

Fostering new ideals and ideas into a form that answer a collective need, ur innovative ambitions have the potential for reaching and affecting society at large.

Soul
I am afraid of more power, so I avoid leadership outside work. That's the reason I quit Isha's core team. I also tried to quit as sathsang guide.

I believed that once I have more power, mean responsibility. More responsibility means more work. More work means less alone time. Less alone time means less pampering, less love. A leader is alone. A leader cannot ask for love, can only give.

I know my website and blog is a good platform. My ebook gives the learning and can inspire others to live for happiness instead of fear.

In past lives
Karmically, ur destiny is to formulate a new identity. An entire cycle of ego expression through an old sense of self has ended, and that ego has dissolved.
This is why u feel so vulnerable in this lifetime.
U have no instinctive ego to serve as a buffer against external stimuli. There is a tendency either to over react or under react when asserting yourself because u don't have a solid sense of self to assert from.
Ur task:
To rise above the limitations of past life personality expressions; to discover and formulate a new, more powerful sense of identity.

Soul
Just this morning I told C that my ego is crushed. All the good things that I tot I m and are proud of are not true. Behind are all my fears. I don't know what I m anymore.
I m now gathering all the hidden parts and me, ready for actions.