Pink is the colour of love

21 Feb

Father, woke up just before alarm rang at 4.30 am. Did Suria Namaskara with subtle body and it was effortless and I was giggling throughout. Shakti was just ok as I didn't do Kapala Bhakti due to menses. Shambavi was good too. I felt such contentment.

This morning I woke up and tot of next year new love and saw that my new phone cover is pink. Pink is the colour of love. When I was reading yesterday on my next year Cards, I tot it was for calendar 2014, and that's another one year away. This morning I remembered my new year starts in July and that's another 4 months to go. I be ready by then.

My Osho card for this week is really true.
1. Issue
The Creator.
The mystic creates himself. He doesn't work with objects, he work on himself, his own being.  He makes himself into a masterpiece. U r carrying a masterpiece hidden within u, but u r standing in the way. Just move aside, then the masterpiece be revealed.
The Zen master in this card has harnessed the energy of fire and is able to use it for creation rather than destruction. He has mastered the fires of passion without repressing them or allowing them to get destructive and out of balance. Using whatever skills u have, whatever u have learned from your own life experiences, it is time to express yourself.

Soul
True. I now helped to bridge the relationship between P and  C. I didn't knew it was so bad. I also didn't knew that P was at her breaking point. Unlike me, she can't leave and hence project her resentment on us.
When I called this morning, I tried to the indirect way, looking for an opening. P was so off putting. She raised her voice and asked me to cut out the bull shit and goes straight to the stories. I was taken aback momentarily by her outburst. I retorted that this is her problem, shutting people off. How can then she expect others to respond. She said she is selective as she knew I can handle it. Mmm, in a way yes, I got this from my dominating bosses.
Anyway, she finally relented and we start afresh. She then start to cry and share her burden. She too know she becomes like a bad person that she doesn't like too. But someone need to take the whip cos otherwise the ship will drown. I let her cry and I said I am sorry as only yesterday I realised the call for help. And I now only know the extent of it. She said she didn't dare to show her vulnerabilities as worry that it will affect others.
Father, somehow I played the role of mediators.


3. External influence
Clinging to the Past
The past is gone and any effort to repeat it is a sure way to stay stuck in old blueprints that u have already outgrown if u hadn't been busy clinging on to what u have already been through.

Soul
Yesterday I cried when I did Shoonya, the tot of going back to be part of Isha leadership hurt my Moon in Taurus as I missed my self pampering. But then I laughed cos that's the past. The true me need to do so.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Guidance
The truth of your own deepest being is trying to show u where u to go right now, and when this card appears it means u can trust the inner guidance u r being given.

Soul
I knew I had to come in and take the lead. But I also know I m not that willing. So for now, just want to bring the team together.
I also knew that's my Sun in Cancer.

5. Resolution.
Sharing
The Queen of Fire is so rich, so much a queen, that she can afford to give. It doesn't occur to her to take inventories or to put aside something for later.
Everything around u seems to be coming together. Enjoy it. Ground yourself in it and let the abundance in you and around you overflow.