Uranus in Virgo and Neptune in Sixth House

Jan 26
Father, did my practices. Went in deep and was laughing towards the end.
Just finished helping out in making festive cookies. My sis took some pix and shared with family on what's app.
For a moment, I wanted to send to Z but then I remembered we are over and he is getting married in July. So, best to let it go.


Spiritual Astrology by Jan Spiller
Uranus in Virgo
Ur ability - to perceive innovative ways of cleaning up the social environment on both physical and mental levels.

Disruption occurs:
When new ways of serving society are misunderstood and taken too literally.

Soul
S keep on saying we are the creator and that is true. And hence we must clean our mind so we create the right things.

Not sure but could be about me ignoring my ability cos unwilling to share out of fear of loss of opportunities to be loved.

Unconscious
Demanding independence by rebelling against close rships. Rebel for the sake of asserting a false sense of emotional freedom and self centred independence.

Conscious
U know how to uniquely express ur individuality through ur talents to be sensitive to people's needs. U can be impersonally loving enough to allow those who are emotionally close to be free from any debilitating dependency. If u choose this road, the results is a sense of personal emotional freedom that allows u to be truly urself, even in close rships.

Soul
Yea. Part of me distanced myself from family. I don't want them to be dependent on me. I don't want them to influence me, to restrict me from my independence.
That's also why I m not keen for children cos they r dependent on me, and it be for life and I lose my independence.

With Z, finally I was open cos he loves children and he is good with them. I knew children can go with him and my independence won't be so affected. Also, I m keen to see how our genes would come together. With my brain and Z's will power, our daughter will make a formidable lady, someone to be reckoned with. Alas, that's not to be. Z is getting married to another. So, move on.

Neptune in Sixth house
Unconscious
Ur tendency is to sacrifice in the altar of duty. If u seek to measure up to some perfected ideal in ur work, u will fail to be recognised as the willing servant that u aim to be.
Striving to be acknowledged as a self sacrificing, spiritual person can lead to severe health conditions, tensions with coworkers, and a tremendous sense of frustration and paranoia on the job.

Conscious expression
The key is in letting go of ideals of how u should look as the worker. Then u can focus on serving others rather than on ur own image.
U r empowered to serve others in a positive way by releasing a need for reflected perfection. In this process u free urself to experience joy and union with coworkers in getting the job done together.
Happiness results when u relax and trust that the universe is supporting u in ur work. This process leads to experiencing the ecstasy of consciously participating in being of service in ur workplace.

Soul
At first I couldn't relate. But now tot its about my view on work. To me working is sacrifice. I had a high expectations on work. When I take up a task, I delivers. That's what made me good in my job.
That's why I asked for 3 days weeks.

The same goes for volunteering, another work for me, another sacrifice. P said I looked stressed before sathsang. I said because set up not done properly in time and give me time to energise myself to receive Sadhguru's energy. But after my trip to India's sathsang, I loosen up. Don't have to carry the burden. The last round I was calm when the music was not in place and people were still talking. But in the end, someone managed it.

Mmm, something here.

My dream is Self-mastery, Queen of Spades - also work.
I am affected at work, at volunteering, at rships.
I m sensitive and measures and work myself to ideal standard.

No one asked of me, but I gave it 110% and then get overwhelmed and when couldn't drop the work or not appreciated, become resentment.
I then perceive Self sacrifice not worth it.
The truth is no one ask for sacrifice. It just like I tot Sadhguru will ask that I be an ideal meditator. When I finally met him, he never asked anything, he just looked at me and laughed.
Just like Dhynalinga, I just be and savoured the energy.
Now alas I know what participation means.