Choosing to live consciously...

Feb 14 Eve
Suddenly feeling sad over Z. Fear is rising. I find my tears coming. I knew its time for my weekly Osho guide

Yes, just as I suspected. It was my mind working overtime.

I just did my Osho cards.
1. Issue
Mind

2. Internal
Moment to Moment

3. External
Patience

4. What to do
Flowering

5. Resolution
Meditation

Just be patient. The seed been sowed.

When I saw my Saturn card from 28 jan to 20 March of Seven of Diamonds with Jack of Diamonds as second card, I hoped it was not due to Z.
I tot I be fine by end Jan and infact did up Ebook Volume 3 to say goodbye in late Jan. Alas, it was not to be. The book was accidentally deleted.
To my surprise, in early Feb, I suddenly opened up my feelings for Z and via Spiritual Astrology, I found out Z is my mirror in Scorpio.
Anyway, I went thru my lesson. Another one month to go before the end of Saturn on 20 March and his birthday on 1 April. That has been my original commitment. Looks like I got to live through this.
I can either live with my unrequited love in sadness or in joy. I consciously choose joy. Amen.