I am finally home to myself

Jan 23 Eve
Soul
Father, my wish is granted. I have hoped that Pe will be my editor and I prefer to pay her and we can go enjoy good meals together.
I didn't ask cos she had previously told me nope. Just now I was asking about another potential editor. Pe called to volunteer herself. My wish is granted and we strike a deal at 100 per doc.
Things are moving.
Now next is website designer.
Give me a good one.
Flow with life.

Spiritual Astrology
As u read the unconscious expression category, the corresponding unconsciousness is stimulated and rises to the surface to be released.
It is okay to feel unsettled after reading the unconscious expression condition. Infact it is appropriate. The degree to which u allow urself to feel totally hopeless when reading the unconscious expression condition is the depth to which the unconscious can be cleared out and released. It will be replaced with a sense of inner freedom and ease as u read the conscious expression description that reveals new options.

Soul
I felt so helpless on monday night when I read my issue on rejection. I can't think of a way out as the fear is overwhelming. A tot did come, at least u r now aware and can't project to others.

A tot came, this is the external issue card - Understanding. The cage is open.

Spiritual astrology
The degree to which u can accept the unconscious expression description in a non judgemental way is the degree to which u are open to receive conscious expression as a transforming agent.

Soul
I just read sun in Cancer. It is 100% on spot. I never was able to relate to my sun sign. I can relate to my moon sign taurus. Infact others also think so.
I recalled reading moon is what u display, sun is what u really are.
I m finally home as I can truly see myself

I tot I m not sensitive person. Now I know I m super sensitive. But I used it on myself and not on others. So I come across uncaring. I m emotionally self centred. All my emotions for myself.

I am envious of how C is so likeable as she is considerate of other people's feelings. Mine is totally on myself
And since I m not aware of my sensitivity and I suppressed my sadness and didn't express outside, the defense mechanism turn inwards and attack my body instead. If I had been aware of my sadness, it will be experienced and I will defend with people outside rather than inside myself.

So, the trick is to use some of my sensitivity for others instead of solely for myself. Once I do that, I become objective and less affected by people and I become more likeable because of my consideration for others. So, double win for myself.

I got hope now.