Lunar in Scorpio - Inside me...I tot I am not good...

Jan 31 Aft
Just did Shoonya. I was crying, cos I didn't see my own worth. I m real goodness. I m valuable. I m worthy. Such paradox, on the surface and to others, I seems to value myself, but actually internal, I think m not worthy. That is why whenever there is no response from Z, I tot I m rejected, I couldn't see my own worth.
Z is not bad, but he is not good. Whereas, I m real goodness. I also realised he never really care for me. Sad, but true. Otherwise, he won't be able to break up so cruelly, not once but twice.
I had projected my goodness into him. He is not worth my power of support, my goodness.


Lunar in Scorpions
U r here to learn : discovery and belief in my own goodness.

When u connect with the power within u and learn to go with ur natural inborn flow, u will find that the universe.

Stop projecting ur goodness outward by looking for someone else to believe in. As u learn to support and trust urself by being true to ur own sense of goodness, u can begin to construct ur own boundaries and contain ur energy.
This then gives u freedom to be more trusting of those around u, since it eliminates the need to give away ur power. This will also lead to the realisation that it is alright for u to be successful and to be in the limelight.
Then u can become the power of ur own throne.

Lunar in Scorpions
Unconsciously, you may have a negative behaviour pattern of building ur success on the misfortune of others. If u r not aware of the lessons u have come to learn, u may find urself surrounded with very negative people or being a very negative person.
If u choose to operate in a negative fashion, ur body may deteriorate as u set out to prove that there is no one u can depend on, not even yourself. You try to prove that there is nothing good on this plane, and that everything must be destroyed.

Soul
No wonder Seven of Clubs in Saturn and Seven of Spades in Cosmic lesson.

Lunar in Scorpions
One way to faciltate ur growth is to begin to value urself.
Once u feel u r worth saving, u r more than capable of pulling urself up. U know ur faults all too well.
U need to understand what is right about urself and to get in touch with the goodness inside u.
U r gentle
U have an understanding of the workings of the universe
U r sensitive (even if u try to hide it)
U care about others (even if u pretend not to).
U have a goodness of intent.

If someone can tell u one positive thing every time u do something negative, it gives u the recognition of ur good intent without validating ur antisocial behaviour.
Once u see this spark of good, u will have enough faith in urself to climb out of the worst situations. U r capable of overcoming circumstances that will bury the average person.

It is important for u to recognise the good within urself because this eclipse rules the energy of destruction, and until u see the spark of good within u, u will continue on a self destructive path. U don't see ur own value until someone reflects it.
U r here to learn ur value as a human being, to society, and to others.

Soul,
Nine of hearts - universal love