Moon in Taurus - pampering myself

Feb 12
Body woke up before 6 am. I slept back as there is no place for my practices. Then I woke up at 8 am and this time with a blocked nose. I knew I need to do my practices.

Ruling cards
Seven of diamonds (financial challenges, learning appreciation for things valued)
We r confronted with how attached we are to our values and are given an opportunity to experience the real prosperity that comes with an attitude of gratitude.
Situations will present themselves that test our faith in the abundance of the universe. By realising and then releasing our fears, we can transform our attachment into total fearlessness and personal freedom.

Soul
Thanks to Father and Sadhguru, I can continue to love Z without feeling I m stupid, without fear of losing myself, without fear of suffering. He is always in my daily prayer of thanks, that's my altar for him. Nothing is lost, everything to gain.

Destiny Cards
Seven of Clubs (dealing with negativity, exposure to spiritual knowledge)
U will be exposed to spiritual knowledge, which leads one back to the self or u will be challenged to let go of mental attitudes and beliefs that are keeping u trapped on lower levels of tots.
How it manifest for u will depend upon ur ability to elevate ur thinking.

Soul
Now alas I can relate to my saturn cards. Never expect to see my mirror of Scorpio in Z.
Also, now I can truly identify myself with my natal chart. I have come home to myself. I m freed.
Seeing how Z acted on his Lunar in Leo and South node in Leo, make me realise that I need not take his rejection of me personally. He can't accept my love and he also wants children. I am more determined to overcome my Lunar in Scorpio, which is Z's moon sign.

Aiyah, I accidentally send a msg to Z. Drafted and wanted to delete but wrongly sent. Never mind, he will ignored it. He read but ignored it.

Ascendant in Gemini
Seeing the other person"s level of faith in the universe and positive outcomes as separate from ur own - and possibly quite different - gives u the opportunity to relate to him without trying to get him to constantly agree with u or be motivated by the same thing that inspire u.

Soul
Z's Venus is in Taurus, whereas my Venus is in Leo, we have different likings.
Just read his Moon In Scorpio about his issue in releasing control over his rships. Very true for him. Then I asked myself, what is my main lesson in my Moon Sign. I saw that I have issue in releasing being a pampered child.

Moon in Taurus
U gain a deeper understanding of inner stability and self worth by supporting and contributing to the material stability of the environment.
Choosing to sacrifice the role of pampered child empowers u to create goals and objectives that motivate u to establish a set of values.
When u notice people who feels good about themselves are those who are contributing their talents and resources in a tangible way, u r then inspired to manifest and establish ur creativity. When u appreciate ur ideals enough to manifest them, u find the confirmation of self worth that u need.


Soul
What I admires are people who follow and execute their dreams.
I now know that it was me holding on being a pampered child that stops me.
Everything I undertake will be measured against how much pampering moments I would have lost. Which is exactly why I never tot to have my own children, as that would wipe out my pampering.
Again, my insecurity with Z was also the fear of losing my pampering financially.
Here I have inbred leadership in Cancer and inbred self confidence in communications under Ascendent in Gemini.
I have wrongly measured my worth by the amount of pampering I give to myself.
Now I understand why my values shakes. It is because of my valuation in pampering.