Venus in Leo and Saturn in Aries

Feb 9 Aft

Spiritual Astrology
Venus in Leo
Self defeating habits - seeking the approval of others in social situations.
Result - moderating ur expressiveness in order to gain recognition. Social isolation and powerlessness ensue when u interpret others' reactions as a personal rejection.

Soul
True. I had the same insight a few months ago.

Venus in Leo
U can bring about ease of communications through ur inclusive open arms policy.
When u use ur generosity and sensitivity to help others reach positive emotional states, u can experience without fear ur own social worth.
U have a dramatic talent for inspiring others and an inbred confidence, warmth and enthusiasm that brings about self worth.

Soul
True. I m welcomed in all meetings. I know my presence made people comfortable.

Saturn in Aries
Unconscious - to stand out as a leader by ignoring established protocol and being impatient.

Results - u will alienate others and results in frustration of ur productive efforts.

Conscious - ur Skills and social responsibility
- to ability to be a leader. As u use ur leadership capacity more and more, u become aware of others' wishes. Fostering new ideals and ideas into a form that answers a collective need, ur innovative ambitions have the potential for reaching and affecting society at large.


Soul
With my Sun in Cancer and Moon in Taurus, I accept being a leader in work environment. It is outside work that I resist.
I knew my blog and Reflections and website will help others. But I shy away, for fear of risking approval.

Saturn in Aries
Karmically, ur destiny is to formulate a new identity. An entire cycle of ego expression through an old sense of self has ended, and that ego has dissolved. That is why you feel so vulnerable in this lifetime.
U have no instinctive ego to serve as a buffer against environmental stimuli. Thus there is a tendency either to overreact or underreact when asserting urself because u don't have a solid sense of self to assert from .

Ur task is to rise above the limitations of past life personality expression to discover and formulate a new, more powerful sense of identity.

Soul
True. When I faced dominating person, I tend to absorb automatically. Somehow I m not affected.
When my ex staff, Sa and SL behaves as if they r my boss and scolded me, I took it.
When Z broke off without a backward glance, I forgives him. Even this latest one where he set himself up with a marriage, I still forgive him. P said I seem to be egoless with Z. She said I seem to take the heat from Z.

That's why I now prayed for strength to stay put. I m not going back. I still love him but he truly doesn't care for me. He has been cruel to me and I deserved to be cherished.

(Z is Aries..no wonder he is my Cosmic Lesson)

 Feb 9 Eve
Leela by Sadhguru
Krishna channeled the women biological love into a more productive channel. Instead of frustration of longing for Krishna, their love was redirected elsewhere.

Soul
Instead of me feeling frustrated with my unrequited love over Z, I will re direct it to my website and writing.